[Cocinella]

Well here's the thing. I've noticed that I swing mostly in "bad mood". But when my state of mind in somehow "normal", I just feel there is no (I call it) life energy in me.

Before I was full of energy, ideas, wishes. Now it's like...blah...don't care about it. Easy said-I am very calm. I was happy of small things before, now not even big things can't make me feel anything. I am not like totally flat of emotions, don't get me wrong....but where did my old self go?

I also miss my determination.

Are the med's doing this to me, I just can't seem to get out of this weird feeling of....emptyness?

love you all

(current meds Lamictal 100mg, Abilify 5mg)

[Blitter2014]

From experience it sounds like depression. I know when I get into the depression phase of my bipolar my self confidence, interest in life and hope of any future all take a huge dive. Ive had bipolar 14 years diagnosed and love the highs...and want them to stay forever. Experiencing them makes the depression so much more debilitating, for I know what I am capable of both feeling and doing.
I would be recommending you go back to your support team/doc /therapist and tell them how your feeling and where your at. Take care its not always going to feel like this....hugs

(Bipolar Lamotrigine 100mg, saphris 10mg, valium 5mg)

[Crazy Hitch]

I get that empty just blah nothing feeling at times too. For me, I think part of my blah nothingness comes from the meds and at other times it may be a mood episode I'm passing through. Recently been diagnosed with a non functioning thyroid which contributed to my mood state. Crappy.

[Cocinella]

hanks guys for your replies hug**

yewah i to thought it was depression, but i am not sure about that. cus i know how it feels to be depressed and this is just not the feeling i am experiencing. well i have pdoc appointment in less than a week and i'm gonna tell this to her. it's annoying and i would agree with you Hooligan that it might be cus of meds.

when i was taking just lamictal it made me feel sooo flat but abilify gave some of the energy back to me but not nearly enough (plus is it still normal to say i have swings if i only swing down and never up into hypomania)?

but blitter i thank you for your good wishes, i hope to feel normal again soon