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#26
Sep 24, 2014, 05:09 PM
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Once I change to this new agency, hopefully I will just go to the nice hospital. |
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Sep 24, 2014, 05:15 PM
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Theatre, I'm sorry that happened to you.
Boy, this thread is really pissing me off. These people are supposed to be taking care of us, not hurting us.
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#28
Sep 24, 2014, 05:51 PM
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Sep 29, 2014, 04:32 PM
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I basically blacked out for two weeks. Not really eating, barely sleeping, maybe a total of two hours a night. I was functional to some degree, but apparently people were very concerned. There were conversations I had only imagined. I couldn't tell the difference between what I had said and only thought. Il couldn't tell between dreams and reality. I would get very upset because i thought someone had used my bank card and obsessively checked it or thought someone was supposed to meet me somewhere and didn't show. I just knew I felt severely depressed and was trying to hide it. People told me that I was acting agressively after the fact, but i have no idea what they are talking about. The best way I can describe it after ending up in the ER is that my brain felt shattered. It took me awhile to get back to some degree of "normal" though I never really completely recovered and I am scared everyday it will happen again. The worst part was when my best friend since highschool later told me she could tell something was going on, but was in a place where she had to deal with her own problems and essentially couldn't take me on. It ruined our friendship. We are still friends, but I will never trust her or reach out if I end up in a bad place.
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Bipolar I Effexor 300 mg Lamictal 400 mg Trazadone 50 mg Seroquel 200 mg Ativan The magician seemed to promise that something torn to bits might be mended without a seam, that what had vanished might reappear, that a scattered handful of doves or dust might be reunited by a word. But everyone knew that it was only an illusion. The true magic of this broken world lay in the ability of the things it contained to vanish, to become so thoroughly lost, that they might never have existed in the first place. |
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#30
Sep 29, 2014, 04:44 PM
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You posting story and style reminds me of a person that use to post here.
I have Bipolar I with psychotic features. I have been full blown psychotic a handful of times in my life. Yeah it sucks. I have always been lucky when it comes to IP services. No I am not a rich person by any means. I think the fact that I have a great Pdoc and T are a big help. I have learned my triggers and I am self aware enough to notice if I am declining into an episode and I am proactive in getting help before I have no choice but to go IP. I'm sure at some point it will sneak up on me and I will not catch it it will just be something I have to manage through. Life isnt always fair.
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#31
Sep 29, 2014, 07:38 PM
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These stories of psych wards are scaring me. I hope they're not all like that. My pdoc tried to encourage me into one last week, but I avoided that and am working to get on track without it.
About the topic of the thread: I have not had a psychotic break, but I have a question about the shadow people that someone mentioned. When I'm really stressed and in a dark place, I wake up to shadow people (usually one, but different ones on different nights and sometimes more than one but that's unusual). When this happens, I'm still somewhat asleep, and I don't think of them as hostile. Since I'm not fully awake, I haven't thought much of this, but this is the first time I've heard anyone else talk about shadow people. What is this about? Should I be worried? |
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#32
Sep 29, 2014, 07:49 PM
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It scary having these feeling who can you trust with them the constant nagging feeling that they are out to get me and I will be treated as a lab experinment I scary where do you go who will believe you and who can you trust ???//
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#33
Sep 29, 2014, 08:19 PM
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They're not all like that. I've had mostly good experiences in them and I've been there quite frequently. As for shadow people I don't think you should be worried as you see them mostly in a semi sleep state.
My psychosis didn't go on for long thank god. I got hospitalized before it could continue. It started with me thinking my husband was controlling me with my medication. Eventually it devolved into thinking people could hear my thoughts, thinking someone was trying to get me to kill myself by telling me to in my head. Then I thought since that person wanted me dead and I didn't know who it was then everyone was suspect. It was pretty terrible. I locked myself In the bathroom at partial care because I was sure those people could read my thoughts and wanted me dead. Since then I've had moments of weirdness...once in group I thought I wasn't real anymore and that half the group members weren't real and had been replaced by robots. But I thought that was irrational so I pushed it away. I had the tv talk to me. But again I knew that was impossible so I pushed it away. Since I've been on invega I haven't had any breakthrough symptoms.
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#34
Sep 29, 2014, 09:00 PM
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When I was under severe stress as a teenager I had an episode where I thought god was talking to me and wanted me to become a nun. It was night time and I told my father to take me to the church so I could speak to the priest there. He didn't take me.
Another time I was sure that a boy I knew drugged me somehow by holding my hand and I was afraid I was on acid or something. I had to sit out of the dance class and calm down. A nurse I danced with gave me a neck/shoulder massage and told me I shouldn't be under this much stress at my age. Both times I was under severe stress and both times as a teenager. It hasn't happened since.
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