Showing my true colors at home

I am feeling so badly for how I treat my husband. I am going through a bad patch of something and I don't hide it at home. At work I am kept busy and actually do have fun and feel mentally great, but I seem to only be able to have those few good hours a day. Outside work it is just too much work.

How is it that at work I am fine? I have even been picking up extra shifts at work (I wait tables) because I know at work I am safe from my feelings. Maybe bc we are so busy and everything is at surface level?

Got off work yesterday after an 8 hour shift and was feeling good. Watched tv, ate pizza, and had a few beers with my husband. After a few hours I was done- I needed to crawl into bed. It's like I am an hourglass and when the sand runs out I am done for.

Home is where we let it out. More easier at home. I don't work (thank goodness) so wish I had one small thing to do would be nice. But no luck when you live so far away from city life.

Sometimes its easier to just be how we feel with those closest to us because we know our loved ones will possibly understand or forgive?

Me, too. Exactly this. In my case, I think it takes so much energy to go out and pass for normal at work, I have nothing left at home.

Does he complain about how you treat him?

He has been lately. He will try to talk to me and I just shut him out. He is such a patient man and puts up with so much, but he deserves better then me. I never have a sex drive, I'm often angry and moody, etc. Sometimes I feel sorry for him that he is stuck with me. I bumped my prozac back up to 40 so maybe that will help some.