What is wrong with me.....

It seems like anytime me and my wife have a serious conversation she ends up telling me something horrific I did months back that I have 0 recollection of... but it's been proven time and time again.. she's often taken off guard because she doesnt realize I was not there during that time..... I've been diagnosed with dissociation.... I guess about 5 months back I went to church told my pastor a deacon and a friend that I was divorcing my wife. That I was done with her and ready to move on... and more stuff as well... here I've been talking with these guys off an on ever sense like nothing ever happened.. because it didn't to me...... how the crap does someone black that out? Now I feel like I need to go to these people and square things up...

I feel more and more like a psycho as everyday passes blacking out and going on these stupid tangents is making me look like a giant moronic *** hole of a fool....

Feel free to reply with whatever you think... I'm just frustrated.. saddened.. ashamed.. and as usual in shock over another rediculoisly stupid thing 8 did that everyone knew about except me

I hope you get to feeling better soon!

I'm sorry you're suffering with this. I wish I could give your some kind of insightful solution but I can't. I'm glad you're venting about it though. It's good to get it out there. And if you feel like you want to go to these people and set things straight, do it if you think it will make you feel better.