[Alone & confused]

Well, I'm down again! Can't seem to switch cycles for the life of me! I absolutely have NOTHING to work with or build on. I'm desperately trying (unsuccessfully) to avoid ALL HUMAN CONTACT. I don't want to see anyone or hear anyone's voice! But of course, I'm getting just the opposite! People calling repeatedly, running in and out of the house, in my face constantly, pushing me ever closer to the edge!! I wish I knew how to force mania to come! I feel SO dead inside that it doesn't seem possible to still be physically alive.

[Tucson]

I would look for normalcy instead of mania. JMHO

[Curious651]

Felt that way last week for most of the week. Tried to sleep all day and all night. I have no suggestion to what can break these moods. If I knew I would use it myself. I kind of just came out of it when had to get up and go to work, clean, and take care of what had to be done. Family told me a lot of stuff and made crappy comments, but I did what needed to be done. Thinking of you and sending you positive thoughts!

[Alone & confused]

Originally Posted by Tucson

I would look for normalcy instead of mania. JMHO

Thanks! The only bad thing about normalcy "stable" is that I can't seem to function (get things done) without a driving force (mania/hypomania). Normal days I just catch my breath, actually rest, stay calm, get bored and indecisive about what I need to do. Mania pushes me to do the things I NEED to do but don't WANT to do. On my stable days I just want to do what I WANT and not what I need to do. Being this depressed there's nothing I even want to do but sleep and avoid people. I can't force myself to do anything today!

[Tucson]

OK. I understand.

[Alone & confused]

Ok, I don't know what happened or why. .... but I'm back! I'm up, motivated, getting things done. I've set myself a list of goals that in reality are probably impossible to get done in one day, but I'm convinced that I can get it all done! We'll see. I'm still not in the best of moods, but the driving force is back.

[Zzsharinzz]

I totally get what your saying I wish I knew the mania button.. But what does help with me is b complex vitamins and music if I can be motivated enough to turn some tunes on

[Victoria'smom]

I'm glad you're back! Maybe talking about it helps.

[PDXBPCUB]

I'm there with you too stuck in depression. I don't know if it's the season less light but all I do is feel bad inside. And I wish there was a manic button sometimes I just need that jolt to get me to do things. Like I know if I work out play some tunes that it would probably do me good. sigh.. thanks for sharing and no you are not alone.

[Alone & confused]

Originally Posted by PDXBPCUB

I'm there with you too stuck in depression. I don't know if it's the season less light but all I do is feel bad inside. And I wish there was a manic button sometimes I just need that jolt to get me to do things. Like I know if I work out play some tunes that it would probably do me good. sigh.. thanks for sharing and no you are not alone.

Sorry you feel this way too! Seasons and weather can both pull me down. And, of course, it was cloudy and dreary out today, and it's supposed to rain for four or five days straight! I can already feel the "dark forces" pulling me back in! I hate it! *sigh* This sucks! A couple of good days....... then BOOM..... Here I go again!