[sorand0m]

Sat here, smoking. Nothing unusual about that.

Got hold of some medication to basically sedate my head so I can feel better, at least for a bit.

This is my sorry excuse for a life. Getting medicines I shouldn't really take just so I can feel nothing.

[kaliope]

so are you able to go to a dr and get meds that can actually help you? I know they turned my entire miserable life around. things can be better. take care.

[Mountainbard]

Originally Posted by kaliope

so are you able to go to a dr and get meds that can actually help you? I know they turned my entire miserable life around. things can be better. take care.

Just affirming what kaliope said. Meds turned my life around too. Before that I self-medicated with alcohol for 25 years. I hope that doesn't happen to you. Self-medication is a trap.

[tipper1492]

Sorry, personally I believe in time, will not work, and may do more damage. I also got back on track with correct medications prescribed. I also gave up smoking tobacco, all pot, and drinking because my psychiatrist said it would all interfere with my medication. I think I can hear it in your words, you really want to do something better, something with a better plan by someone in the field.

[sorand0m]

I do want better.

My life is a mess and a string of disappointment and I don't see any way out. I can't tell how I'll feel from one day to the next and the monster inside my head never rests.

I can't live life like this and at least this way I can choose to feel ok even if it's only for a while.

Medication for this has failed me and I can't do the same meds again. I just can't.

[Crazy Hitch]

Originally Posted by sorand0m

I do want better.

My life is a mess and a string of disappointment and I don't see any way out. I can't tell how I'll feel from one day to the next and the monster inside my head never rests.

I can't live life like this and at least this way I can choose to feel ok even if it's only for a while.

Medication for this has failed me and I can't do the same meds again. I just can't.

Hang in there, I've bee on so many different kinds of meds to stabilize my mood and what has worked for others has certainly not worked for me. I'm in the process of a new cocktail of meds and am waiting to see what works.