[sorand0m]

I tried really hard to get myself straight this last week. I have a problem with self medicating.

I've had a horrible day. I wanted to feel better so I did the only thing I knew would definitely make me feel fine.

I took some pills. Just like that.

I'm weak and worthless.

[Justugh]

no not really

tho the self med thing never ends well ............it is a hard and u really do not want too but seeing a doctor and getting things written out ..........it will save u alot of troubles down the road

if u are having a hard time and a ****** day with possible bad results coming up .........hit the hospital tell the lady/guy i am having mental health issues need to see doctor .........they will check u in take u back u see doctor they write u legal script of something in your name that will help u until u see your regular person and get everything set back up and going

if u do not have a reg person to see tell the doctor this and get a 3 week worth of dosing so u can get insurance who u want to see and look up possible meds to try before your first apointment

[Curious651]

I cannot accept the idea of you being weak because we all are strong for dealing with what we deal with day by day. To accept your weak is to accept we are all weak. That scares me. I have been fighting the tears all night and have little insight into my mood or cause. If I take the stance you are stating I am weak. I think we all have rough days. This will pass. Please try and look at the thing you do that take strength.

[Mountainbard]

As you believe, so you become. You can choose to believe you're weak and worthless. Or you can choose to believe you made a poor choice today. I self-medicated for 25 years. It's not easy to get straight, but that doesn't make it impossible. A slip is not a fall unless you let it be. Hang in there, and remember that "I'm weak and worthless" is your illness talking.

It's not weak to cater to the illness. It's simply a lapse in judgement and inability to fight harsh thoughts. But if you keep pushing forth you find a way to channel the negative to something good. And yes it is easier said than done as its skill I'm still working on. I hope you find a way to stand on your own feet.

[Blitter2014]

A bad day does not mean a bad life. Everyone has bad days, even the most normal of people. Give yourself a break and keep on going. Its not always foing to be like this

[Victoria'smom]

Nope, your not weak or worthless. You're human and as all humans you made a mistake. Now instead of beating yourself up how are you going to make it harder to get the pills you self medicate with?

[sorand0m]

Part of my problem is that I can get them so easily. I just ask and it's done.

They make me feel fine for a while, even good. I know it's not good for my body but it's helping my mind. I took more than usual today. Feel a bit wired.

[Justugh]

Originally Posted by sorand0m

Part of my problem is that I can get them so easily. I just ask and it's done.

They make me feel fine for a while, even good. I know it's not good for my body but it's helping my mind. I took more than usual today. Feel a bit wired.

i know ..........i used weed for years to control it works well for me but my state still calls it a drug for bi polar
the amount i used a day is less then a gram .......the cost of the pill vs the cost of weed pills cost me 4 times the amount then it is a crap shoot if they work

but if u get caught with pills that are not under doctors orders u could be looking at some major time and costs

i got vape pen from denver ...........i was out and about having a good old time and offered a undercover dea a hit now i am looking at 5 years in prison and so far 13500 bucks paided out 5 k lawyer 6.5k bail the rest is hospital and doctor cost for pills ..........and i still have to defend myself in court so i could be locked up for 5 years for being a nice guy offering to share

moral of that rant is ............suck it up see the doctor get on legal pills otherwise u will be in my shoes later ..............it is a odds game sooner or later u will lose