sanity score

I did the sanity score.. 180.. I do need help again. Must visit doc tomorrow, but its like they dont care because on the outside i look fine. I get home from docs and cry. Does anyone else have this problem ??

yes...my problem is that I get to the doc and tell them I am doing fine...I have learned I have to tell them the things that are going wrong instead of the things that are going right

Didnt get an appt, have to wait until next week now. You are so right in what you say, i will write it all down, best coz i forget. Thanks Kali

I do something similar. When I go to my appointments I usually try to present the best version of myself despite how truly awful I feel. I don't know what it is that makes me want to seem fine, but it's there and I have to try to work around it.

I don't even bother going to the head doc for myself anymore. Pointless. I find them too businesslike and too eager to get you in and out in the allotted 5 minutes so they can see the next patient. Their answer to everything is to put you on some shitload of drugs they have never tried themselves, the aim being to dope you up as much as possible and thus render you harmless to nice, normal people. I did recently go to my parents' doctor to try and talk to him about my parents' mental health issues (mum is schizophrenic/bipolar and dad has dementia), but it was the same story. I couldn't even get to see a doctor; instead they let me see the nurse practicioner who didn't know anything about their cases, and she just half listened, seemed impatient, and fobbed me off with some crap about I should come back if things "got worse". I was like "okay, so you mean like if one of them drops dead or kills someone, I can come back then?" She was not amused. Medics = f***wads.

Darvula

Use to putting on the act and it does not come off to fast in public. No one knows when depressed or suicidal. Don't let them know and when in t or pdoc they see the same as I show everyone else. Makes sense to me the reason you don't tell them. Becomes habit. Good luck

Learn to articulate what you're telling doctors, if you can't put it in words then play the role of the unstable bipolar person we all have seen on the TV, then they will listen.

Or shop for better doctors.

I don't put much stock in the sanity score. I took it twice in the same day and it was relatively moderate, but when I saw the pdoc she was ready to admit me. I was in worse shape than I realized. Would it help you to take a friend or relative who can verify the severity of your symptoms when you're home?

Does anyone else have this problem ?? Yep, the people that listen to my words flip ****. The people paying attention to how I present, my personality see nothing wrong. That's the way I want it. That's why I have my make up tattoo'd

I think if your not able to verbally tell them how your feeling, Just write things down and it will be a reminder or you can just hand them the paper... I do not trust the online quizzes, If i took the same one 7 days in a row I would have all different numbers.

It's normal for me to well up into tears any time i speak with anyone of authority (any ideas on that one is welcome!), so i always at least cry a little. Afterwords, i cry full on heaving, screaming toddler tears because i felt unheard and was shuffled through faster than comfortable. I feel like a number, my ear branded like they do cattle. Now i'm sad.