Complete med change and rambling

As I've posted in here last week, new pdoc, proper diagnoses and complete new med regime incoming.

Withdrawing off the Prozac is not fun. I'm more or less unmedicated at the moment, except for Valium, painkillers and OTC meds to help me sleep (when I can) Being in a mixed episode all over the place isn't helping.

I'm so paranoid. Feeling detached and also really angry as my ex decided to accuse me of giving him an STI. I never sleep around. If I did I would be using protection. The audacity of people. He didn't even apologise for accusing me. Nor has he got results. Lucky I have my GP tomorrow so I will get a test. This just won't stop playing on my mind and it's driving me nuts.

Tuesday I start on the Valproate (Depakote/Epilim) And can't wait. I was only on a low dose earlier in the year which did help somewhat, but I was still having problems with mood/sleep etc. 600-800mg is not therapeutic IMO, nor from what I've read or heard from others on it. I'm guessing he'll go 1000mg.

And then he said we'll see what else needs to be added. Starting from scratch is daunting. Withdrawals on top. Exes being difficult. I feel like I'm going to break soon ARGH.

Thanks for listening to my rambling. Can I curl up and keep hiding from the world?

I'm sorry you're not in a good way right now Nicole.

Your emotions are quite understandably all over the place.

In some respects you earns the right to be angry with your ex. Just don't hang on to the anger for too long because it will eat you alive. You know the truth and so be it. His opinion on this matter is irrelevant.

You'll find you'll rock a little back and forth but hopefully the meds will kick in soon.

Take care of yourself.

I'm sorry you are having such problems. Changing meds is never easy. I've gone through many, fortunately I don't seem to have much trouble with discontinuing a med. I just recently went through a major med change and am doing a lot better. I how you have good luck with yours.

Thank you both for replying

The Prozac withdrawals are worse today, not feeling good at all. Although somehow I slept 11 hours which is unheard of for me... Brain is definitely doing some crazy things.

As for the ex, I'm going to get tests today, it'll ease my mind but it was just making me so mad yesterday.

I think once I go on my mood stabiliser tomorrow it'll be a lot better. Fingers crossed!

Hey Nicole,

I'm going through the same as you. Have been searching for the right medications and its been a nightmare. What is your diagnosis? I think I've been in a mixed state as well..

I think he's more leaning towards BP 1, as he's said the manic episodes are the main concern and that I get overwhelmed from them all and crash which cause the depression.

Mixed episodes are awful