[bipolar gemini]

So my husband is out of town and i'm not really sure how to take care of myself without him here. the truth is, he keeps me on track to eat, shower, get out of the house, etc. i rely so much on him, that when he is gone, i don't know what to do with myself. i've only eaten whats in the house, along with drinking which i normally dont do, the days feel so long. i'm a grown woman and don't know how to take care of myself when alone. i have too much social anxiety to leave the house. it's a battle to go to the grocery to get food, let alone decide what to eat. and i feel ashamed of these facts.
I feel like i've lost my identity to this disorder. things i used to like don't define me anymore, and when i'm forced to be alone i can't help but look at these realities..that i'm not the same person because of this bp. all that is left is a shell filled with anxieties, depression, and fear.
am i the only one that feels this way?

[Justugh]

yep feel that way nope not like yours

not married ......u have to set a routine
wake up
shower shave brush teeth
glass of tea in the morning
do what ever need to be done for the day
6-7 pm eat food
midnight go to bed
that is mine ...........most days i have nothing i need to do so i move 3 feet from my bed to a chair and play on the computer learning what ever subject has gotten my eye that day

as for who u are that is u ..........are u a nice person or a grouchy ...do u like brids or do they bug u ....your u .....u are getting lost in the idea what u do is what makes u .......if u want get idea who u are ask ppl u know and friends (they can see tho the haze) look at what they say and what gets repeated

that is u who ever u are