[HALLIEBETH87]

Ok no lecturing. This is simply a question, asked to bring civil discussion.

After going through years of crap and feeling crap....there still times I really just don't think I have bipolar. Yeah...I know stuff Ive done and such..but..

like now, if you can feel ok for a bit..I think myself Im ok now and don't need treatment cause Im not bipolar.

anyone else?

[Raindropvampire]

No I do not but hubby who it turns out is that wonderful combination of schizophrenic and bipolar does.

I will say he has been doing wonderfully with staying on his meds despite everything that is going on. All it took was me filming him to show him how he REALLY is off meds. To him he's great everything is fantastic and he's been misdiagnosed and the doctors are fools. To everyone else he's wackadoo. He's....you'd just have to see the video because it would take pages to describe.

I know part of the disease are good times where no symptoms present. I know there will be soul crushing depressions to follow and manic rages where I will want to kill everything around me. It's all part of the cycle.

When I was younger and was first diagnosed then I did go through periods of thinking I was better. I felt fine, no mood swings and even the people around me told me how good I was doing. I had to be all better right? NOPE just part of the freaking cycle. Now I can pretty much tell you, within about a 72 hour window, how long whatever I'm feeling will last. damn the rollercoaster

[Polibeth]

I go through times when I think "My pdoc has it all wrong I don't have bipolar" or "Maybe I accidentally fakes the symptoms". LOL.

My pdoc told me I have a terrible case of bipolar and he uses my case as the standard to make diagnosis on others

[Love&Toil]

I too have doubts about my diagnosis. This is because I don't seem to present in the most obvious way. I have some of the symptoms and other cyclical patterns (SAD, PMDD). I had PPD/A. I know without meds I could have major mood swings, serious depression, intensity, turned on for 3-4 days at a time, rages. I'm just not a clear bipolar 1 and am diagnosed bipolar 2.... but my hypomania is also not classic hypomania. Symptoms don't present exactly textbook. And yet being diagnosed explains a lot.

[onionknight]

I don't reject the diagnosis, but I reject a lot of what it is supposed to mean.

[Victoria'smom]

See I'm more **** meds, **** therapy nothing helps. I'm just screwed.

[newtothis31]

Misdiagnosis happens.

This article is a good read: Misdiagnosis of Bipolar Disorder

[tipper1492]

I think you'd be taken a BIG risk just stopping the meds. Also if you just stop going to see your psychiatrist, many times they will drop you, and will not take you back. In many parts of the U.S.A. there are waiting list to see a psychiatrist.

[Victoria'smom]

I went through your old posts. You're on a ton of meds and as of 10 days ago you were unwell. I would talk to your doctor about slowly weaning you off the meds with the most side effects.

[jesusplay]

a year of no mania or hypomania, i feel like I am just a major depressive

[LaraHugs]

I'm not convinced that this is even a condition.

[wiretwister]

remember being sui remember being at rock bottom my last memory of being anything else is years ago..... keep thinking maybe I am just depressed but .... there was a time I was the life of the party, the center of attention a "ping pong ball in the center of a hurricane" maybe my cycles are just very long...two pdocs and my wife seem to believe it,,so I guess I must how ever much dought I have....

[~Christina]

Bipolar gives everyone a Unique soup of the own symptoms and signs and struggles. "my Bipolar is unlike anyone elses"

I know one person that LOVES HAVING BIPOLAR. She's a Drama queen , attention seeking type, loves to be sick/ill/on medications.

[HALLIEBETH87]

Who would like bring sick

[emgreen]

Originally Posted by Miguel'smom

You're on a ton of meds and as of 10 days ago you were unwell.

Based on another thread you started today at 12:49 citing feeling a strange sense of anxiety, it seems you were unwell 30 minutes before starting this thread.

"Its an on edge, anxious angry feeling...like Im in the middle of a panic attack and THEN my body feels this crazy, restless rage where I literally feel like Ive got to jerk my body around or jump or something to make it go away.

When it happens I feel anxious and scared and like I could just lose it.

I HAVE no idea how to explain really what this is. I have dealt with anxiety all my life but NOTHING like this!"

Drama much?

[jacky8807]

I go through this constantly. Until another episode or cycle then im like oh theyy must be right lol

[jacky8807]

From what i have heard lack of insight is very common

[HALLIEBETH87]

Originally Posted by emgreen

Based on another thread you started today at 12:49 citing feeling a strange sense of anxiety, it seems you were unwell 30 minutes before starting this thread.


Drama much?

Thank you for your comment. Drama? No. Fear? Yes. I'm calmer now but I've never felt that before and it's unfair to comment on my thread if what you have to say is not helpful.

Thanks again.

[BipolaRNurse]

I've gone through a number of denial phases since I was diagnosed ~ 3 years ago. I always think I'm just in an existential crisis that will go away at some point. But for some reason they've seemed to happen in the early fall, and then I slipped into a depressive episode that showed me (again) that I really do have bipolar.

I think the denial is gone for good now, though. I spent a week in a psych unit last month and received a definitive diagnosis of Bipolar 1 with depression. Up till then I'd been characterized as "possible bipolar 1" but it wasn't firm. Not that the label makes any difference in my treatment, but it did define my illness in such a way that I can't very easily attribute it to a life crisis anymore. I guess we'll see the next time I get a wild hair up my arse and start thinking I'm cured. LOL