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I've been trying to kill myself in one form or another since I was 13 and still want to all the time. I've been rapid cycling for about a year. I hate my soul. I don't really know why im bothering w/this
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A lot of common misconceptions of death. That it will bring peace, tranquility….
It doesnt. I really hate to say that but it doesnt. I have been to that place. It was dark, silent, lonely. I know it seems tough. You say you have been dealing with thoughs for a while? How old are you now? What are you doing fro treatment? What help are you getting? |
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Do you think it was a good idea now? Rapid cycling sucks, I'm there with you. I have been rapid cycling for a couple years. Makes it feel like it will never get better but I have hope it will. Every storm runs out of rain. It will get better.
What things do you do to take care of yourself? Coping skills? Therapist? I hope you keep fighting.!were all here to support you as we can.! |
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I was in kind of the same boat as you op. My pdoc told me I was passively sucidal and I had to active attempts last year alone but in the past I have had about 20 or more attempts. I did five inpatient stays last year alone and they have seemed to have gotten me on the right tract on the last two visits. I have found that taking Lithium has helped me and I am willing to accept the negative side affects cause it is nice not to wake up everyday wishing I was dead. Now Lithium may not help you but there might be something that can it just takes time to find out what will help sometimes. I wish you the best of luck.
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it's not the rapid cycling that makes me crave death. I've wanted it since I was 13. I want to die because my brain is always in pain and I loath myself. Even w/all kinds drugs all it does is mute the monster and make me zombie.
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you should look in to getting some more treatment for it. 49.... that's still young. you can still have a lot of amazing experiences |
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I cant fight it any more. I was supposed to be tough guy nothing ever got to me. people tell there problems I could take it. It was all a mask. I'm fraud. I give it wins. there's only one way to beat your brain. It' kind of a lose lose
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Have you ever tried seeing therapist regularly?
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Many times. but most I've had contact w/were either ignorant or fools. They have to have something extra.to be any good. And there are things I can say here that I wont say a therapist
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I have and always will be passively suicidal. I've accepted this my new therapist has not.
Even w/all kinds drugs ... make me zombie you're on the wrong mixture.
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Dx: Me- SzA Husband- Bipolar 1 Daughter- mood disorder+ Comfortable broken and happy "So I don't know why I'm tongue tied At the wrong time when I need this."- P!nk My blog |
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all i'll say is this: you've not giv all i'll say is this. you've not given up, because if that was the case you wouldn't be posting on the forum i think that deep down you still have a will to live and are just looking for some good advice |
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