Lost on christmas

Dec 24, 2014, 11:58 PM

Merry Christmas everyone... I just wish...

Dec 25, 2014, 12:22 AM

Crazy Hitch · Dec 25, 2014, 01:51 AM

Thinking of you and sending you cyber hugs

ajohnson45 · Dec 25, 2014, 02:20 AM

I feel the same way. I'm such a freak and even my family knows it now. if only I could become normal for Christmas.

Crazy Hitch · Dec 25, 2014, 04:34 AM

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Originally Posted by ajohnson45

I feel the same way. I'm such a freak and even my family knows it now. if only I could become normal for Christmas.

You're not a freak. You have a diagnosis that you're working through.

Dec 25, 2014, 07:53 AM

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Originally Posted by AlwaysChanging2

Merry Christmas everyone... I just wish...

i wish a lot of things.

like i could find even a glimmer of happyness.

but

nope

left alone and confused

ajohnson45 · Dec 25, 2014, 10:31 AM

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Originally Posted by Hooligan

[quote name="ajohnson45" post=4173372]I feel the same way. I'm such a freak and even my family knows it now. if only I could become normal for Christmas.

You're not a freak. You have a diagnosis that you're working through.[/quote]

I haven't been diagnosed with anything. I'm just a freak. All I've been diagnosed with is ADHD.

Dec 25, 2014, 10:33 AM

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Originally Posted by ajohnson45

You're not a freak. You have a diagnosis that you're working through.

I haven't been diagnosed with anything. I'm just a freak. All I've been diagnosed with is ADHD.[/QUOTE]

you're not a freak.

what makes you think that?

gayleggg · Dec 25, 2014, 10:35 AM

ajohnson45 · Dec 26, 2014, 01:58 AM

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Originally Posted by shattered sanity

you're not a freak.

what makes you think that?

I'm depressed, I haven't had a conversation with any girls I have been interested in for 2 years now, I have severe ADHD, I'm immature, I've never hung out with a girl, never kissed a girl, never held a girls hand romantically, never been in a relationship with a girl, never talked on the phone with a girl etc... I'm also a self centered asshole and I hate myself a lot. I have low self esteem, I pick at my acne, I have little motivation ever, I am rude to my family a lot, I have hardly any friends, and I'm mentally unstable. What girl would ever want to be with a guy like me? No girl would ever.

Dec 26, 2014, 06:43 AM

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Originally Posted by ajohnson45

I'm depressed, I haven't had a conversation with any girls I have been interested in for 2 years now, I have severe ADHD, I'm immature, I've never hung out with a girl, never kissed a girl, never held a girls hand romantically, never been in a relationship with a girl, never talked on the phone with a girl etc... I'm also a self centered asshole and I hate myself a lot. I have low self esteem, I pick at my acne, I have little motivation ever, I am rude to my family a lot, I have hardly any friends, and I'm mentally unstable. What girl would ever want to be with a guy like me? No girl would ever.

a lot of people here are depressed and unstable and need the support of the comunity. (which is why sites like this exist), so that people who do need this type of support can get it.

i'm pretty sure a lot of people here (me included), would disagree about the low self esteem part. but again, that's why we're here as well. to make you feel better about yourself and to give you help and ideas.

you can't blame yourself for having ADHD. that's not your fault at all. i'd go as far to say that their's a section here related to ADHD (but i can't actually find it. lol) but i know that their is. somewhere.

and as for the rest?

i'm a girl myself, and i too never did any of what you said. dated, talk to a guy on the phone, hold a guy's hand, kiss.. i've not done any of that stuff.

hell i couldn't even make it through college

so all is not lost... really.

keep posting here

ajohnson45 · Dec 26, 2014, 06:34 PM

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Originally Posted by shattered sanity

a lot of people here are depressed and unstable and need the support of the comunity. (which is why sites like this exist), so that people who do need this type of support can get it.

i'm pretty sure a lot of people here (me included), would disagree about the low self esteem part. but again, that's why we're here as well. to make you feel better about yourself and to give you help and ideas.

you can't blame yourself for having ADHD. that's not your fault at all. i'd go as far to say that their's a section here related to ADHD (but i can't actually find it. lol) but i know that their is. somewhere.

and as for the rest?

i'm a girl myself, and i too never did any of what you said. dated, talk to a guy on the phone, hold a guy's hand, kiss.. i've not done any of that stuff.

hell i couldn't even make it through college

so all is not lost... really.

keep posting here

All my cousins who are my age are normal but I am not. So many people I know are happy and normal. I always will consider myself a freak, I'll never stop thinking it because I am one. I'm going to be alone for the rest of my life and I'm only 17 and I already know it.

Dec 26, 2014, 06:40 PM

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Originally Posted by ajohnson45

All my cousins who are my age are normal but I am not. So many people I know are happy and normal. I always will consider myself a freak, I'll never stop thinking it because I am one. I'm going to be alone for the rest of my life and I'm only 17 and I already know it.

I've have no problems with it but it sounds like you really should start your own thread, to make it all about you. Just a thought

The title of the thread doesn't match your concerns.

But I think you're wrong about how you feel about your self. We "mentally ill" people are good about beating ourselves up. So please don't!

ajohnson45 · Dec 26, 2014, 06:43 PM

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Originally Posted by AlwaysChanging2

I've have no problems with it but it sounds like you really should start your own thread, to make it all about you. Just a thought

But I think you're wrong about how you feel about your self. We "mentally ill" people are good about beating ourselves up. So please don't!

I am too lazy to do that. This winter break has sucked. I wish I was a different person who was normal. FML.

Dec 27, 2014, 07:56 AM

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Originally Posted by ajohnson45

I am too lazy to do that. This winter break has sucked. I wish I was a different person who was normal. FML.

what sort of person do you want to be.

it's not to late, we can help you become that person

A Red Panda · Dec 27, 2014, 10:04 AM

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Originally Posted by ajohnson45

All my cousins who are my age are normal but I am not. So many people I know are happy and normal. I always will consider myself a freak, I'll never stop thinking it because I am one. I'm going to be alone for the rest of my life and I'm only 17 and I already know it.

Just saying........ a lot of people appear normal who don't feel like they're normal. Some people are experts at keeping their troubles to themselves and pretending. Especially around family.

And a lot of the things that you're worried about at age 17? A lot of people, despite what everyone thinks, haven't really dated much then. My first relationship and anything was when I was turning 19. And it was long distance, with someone I met online, haha. My next one was at age 22, and was again long distance! There are lots of people here who've gone even later than that before finding a relationship to have.

There's also a LOT of time to work and change things. I say that as someone who decided around age 16-17 that I was going to change. And I have. A lot. I like myself a lot more than I used to. I still feel like I'm abnormal, and it has taken a looonnnngggg time to make any noticeable progress for myself, but I have been making it and I continue trying.