[C3P0]

I'm always analyzing what could help me cope better on a daily basis. I think that one thing I'm looking for is some predictability to how I can manage each day. I mean have some tools or other meds that I can turn to and get into thinking and acting habits so that I could see myself in future situations and say "I know what I would do in that situation" For so long now, I haven't been able to say "My personality is like this" or "I would react this way", because it depends so much on how my mind is working on any particular day.
I currently take Seroquel, Lexapro and Ativan daily.
Does anyone know what I'm talking about as far as not having a handle on the general framework of your personality?

[Crazy Hitch]

Hi C3PO

I tend to find that my reactions change according to where I'm sitting on the mood scale.

When I'm stable I'd probably react in a more consistent manner. If I'm manic I can be highly unpredictable. And if I'm depressed I wouldn't react to much other than cry.

It's largely based around exacerbated emotions that I may be feeling at the time.

I may react in a highly irritable or overly jovial manner to circumstances whilst manic. It's hard for me to predict if I'd react more irritably or more happy go lucky - but my meds need adjusting when I'm like this.

If I'm depressed the littlest of things can throw me off and make me cry. No matter how much I try visualise in my mind "Be Strong" and think if X happens I'm going to do Y.

So yeah, the thoughts, behaviours, attitude tend to fluctuate somewhat with me.