[UpDownMiddleGround]

It dawned on me about 20 minutes ago that it is January 20something. The problem with that is my best friend's son had a birthday last week. Yeah, I was flying high on mania that day. She says we talked about it the day before. (I was flying high that day too, along with the day after. I don't remember. I could have redeemed myself last weekend when they went to the movies, except 1) i didn't even know the date, 2)i was so disconnected, I would not have made the connection even if I'd been aware of the date and 3) I remember being in the bed last weekend, crying and telling myself that i should probably get up. By Saturday, i was somewhere between a scattered messed and a pool of tears. She reminded me that I missed it last year too. Yeah, last year I was unmedicated, undiagnosed, taking an SSRI, and suicidal around the time of his birthday. "Sorry" feels like an excuse. Today WAS a good day. Crap. . .

And the difference between being "properly" medicated and not is what? . . .heck, obviously I was forgetting birthdays before having a pdoc and meds for BPI. Doesn't feel much like improved quality of life.

[kaliope]

haha........im no better......i looked at my phone and saw the notice from facebook that told me it was my SON'S birthday and hadnt got him anything. So i texted him 8 oclock at night and wished him a happy bday and said i would like to take him out to dinner ovr the weekend to celebrate. so i went shopping today and we are going out tomorrow.

it is things like this that make me open about my mental health issues. being able to call and say, hey i was having an episode so i missed your bday, but i would love to make up for it now..............and besides, they make belated birthday cards for a reason

[~Christina]

I keep everything on my cell phone, Seems I have a lot of alarms going off as a reminder of things I need to take care of . Its working well.

[UpDownMiddleGround]

Thanks for the suggestion. I bought him a present last night and decided I would tell him I was pretty "scattered" last week apologize to him today. The calendar idea is great. Even though traditionally I have been able to remember events and just 'change my mind' about going, I've reached a point in my life where I might not remember the event due to the magnitude of the episode. I guess that's why I was referred to a pdoc. Thanks for the feedback and the suggestions.