[secretgalaxy]

So I got diagnosed with major depression after being admitted into a hospital for suicidal intent. Well, while I was in there they put me on an antidepressant that is suppose to be a sleep aid as well, because I was only getting a few hours of sleep a night. Four days being on it and all of sudden everything is amazing and I have enough energy to run a marathon. I was still in the hospital during that time. The nurses started to really worry and even ordered an anti-psychotic one night because I refused to go to sleep. That made me a zombie the next day. The psychiatrist discharged me a few days later, even though I was jumping up and down, not able to focus, just being overall crazy. On my discharge date, he finally really noticed that I was literally jumping off the walls and the other patients explained to him that it has been going on for days and he started to get worried. He decided to let me go, as my mom traveled 2 hours to get me, and said that I needed to return if it continued. Well, that was like a week or two ago and I am still running on full with little to no sleep. Personally, I feel great, like I am reading like 70 pages a day of my textbooks, drawing again, biking, like doing everything I had no energy to do before. My friend a few days ago brought up that I could have bipolar disorder, because I showed a lot of the symptoms for it. After discussing it with her, we spotted a cycle of manic to depression last year that lead me to my hospitalization. During the summer I was pretty manic, planning to bike 200 miles a week and had a whole plan to lose 20 pounds get a six pack, train my dog for obedience competitions and a bunch of other projects. Well when school came in I got depressed that I did not finish my projects, got stressed from the work, and ended up close to committing suicide and then ended up at the hospital. My mom is taking me to my new office and changing my meeting date for my psychiatrist to as soon as possible, because she can't take it anymore. I personally love myself like this because I have more energy than I have ever had! Meds are just controlling devices. What should I do about this? Did anyone have this happen to them?

[cashart10]

Originally Posted by secretgalaxy

So I got diagnosed with major depression after being admitted into a hospital for suicidal intent. Well, while I was in there they put me on an antidepressant that is suppose to be a sleep aid as well, because I was only getting a few hours of sleep a night. Four days being on it and all of sudden everything is amazing and I have enough energy to run a marathon. I was still in the hospital during that time. The nurses started to really worry and even ordered an anti-psychotic one night because I refused to go to sleep. That made me a zombie the next day. The psychiatrist discharged me a few days later, even though I was jumping up and down, not able to focus, just being overall crazy. On my discharge date, he finally really noticed that I was literally jumping off the walls and the other patients explained to him that it has been going on for days and he started to get worried. He decided to let me go, as my mom traveled 2 hours to get me, and said that I needed to return if it continued. Well, that was like a week or two ago and I am still running on full with little to no sleep. Personally, I feel great, like I am reading like 70 pages a day of my textbooks, drawing again, biking, like doing everything I had no energy to do before. My friend a few days ago brought up that I could have bipolar disorder, because I showed a lot of the symptoms for it. After discussing it with her, we spotted a cycle of manic to depression last year that lead me to my hospitalization. During the summer I was pretty manic, planning to bike 200 miles a week and had a whole plan to lose 20 pounds get a six pack, train my dog for obedience competitions and a bunch of other projects. Well when school came in I got depressed that I did not finish my projects, got stressed from the work, and ended up close to committing suicide and then ended up at the hospital. My mom is taking me to my new office and changing my meeting date for my psychiatrist to as soon as possible, because she can't take it anymore. I personally love myself like this because I have more energy than I have ever had! Meds are just controlling devices. What should I do about this? Did anyone have this happen to them?

I had a very similar experience when I took an anti-depressant for the first time and I have Bipolar Disorder. I have read that if you remain manic after the anti-depressant leaves your system, you have bipolar disorder. If you go back to normal after the anti-depressant leaves your system then the mania was a side effect. Of course, if you have a history of mania, that is a different story altogether.

[secretgalaxy]

We are guessing that I had a manic episode over the summer, but we are not sure. How did you recognize the symptoms? I don't think I would have noticed if it wasn't for the nurses really freaking out on me that night and semi-forcing me to take an anti-psychotic and if my friend didn't bring it up to me, I would not have thought of bipolar at all. Are paranoid thoughts a part of bipolar, because I have those a lot too. My mind races with some crazy thoughts sometimes.

[cashart10]

I didn't notice the symptoms the first time, my mom did. I was 14 at the time. I went outside one night and was doing cartwheels and running around and insisted to my mom I do this well past my bedtime (on a school night). I remember wanting to dive off of the porch. I didn't sleep all night and was disruptive at school (which wasn't to uncommon for me at the time). The excessive energy and lack of sleep continued. However, despite this reaction, it was a full year and another manic episode before I was diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder. Now I can sometimes recognize mania if I notice my thoughts might be bizarre but my husband usually recognizes it by my behavior.

It sounds like you are definitely having symptoms. Paranoia can absolutely be a symptom of the illness. I become paranoid when psychotic which usually occurs when I am extremely manic. I think you mom is wise to move your appt up so you can find out asap what is causing your symptoms.

[Wander]

Today I am being hospitalised because I am in a mixed state and my Anti-D (Pristiq) may be responsible. So, I am going to be taken off it to, hopefully, stabilse my mood. Some people with bipolar can tolerate AD if on a mood stabiliser at the same time but it seems I am not one of them.

[secretgalaxy]

Thank you for sharing! This really helps me. I hope that I can get stable soon as I can see that it is really worrying my mom, even though I feel great! Yea, I feel like I can't sleep right now because I have way too much energy and I feel like someone is watching me. I haven't pulled an all nighter for years, but I have been close this week with only 2 hours for most of the week. Tonight, though, I don't think I'll be sleeping much, if at all.

[secretgalaxy]

Originally Posted by Wander

Today I am being hospitalised because I am in a mixed state and my Anti-D (Pristiq) may be responsible. So, I am going to be taken off it to, hopefully, stabilse my mood. Some people with bipolar can tolerate AD if on a mood stabiliser at the same time but it seems I am not one of them.

I am sorry to hear that you are getting hospitalized, but I am glad that you are getting help for it! My hospitalization was for 12 days and it was actually pretty fun, especially after they put me on my AD. Everyone is telling me that this med is making me very unstable, so I guess I am not tolerating it well.