[NikkiLLL]

Hey, I know I haven't been on this site for a long time (like a really long time) but I have no one and no where to talk about this so here it goes. Please excuse my rant and how I put it in words I'm not in my best state of mind right now.
I have a new job, which happens to be my first actual job, and I say new only because its how it feels, I've been there for 6 months now. Needless to say I hate it, its boring and I don't like the people I work with, mostly because I don't like people in general, they're not really that bad. From day one it felt WEIRD (for lack of a better word) being around people ALL the time was driving me crazy, having to explain everything I do or say, again its probably my not liking people or not being used to them thats the problem. Everyday I try my best to get through the day and hope it'll get easier tomorrow but it doesn't. I try really hard to get the job right, anxiety making it even harder settle in this place. Then today, just when I thought I got things under control, the worst thing imaginable happens, I screw up and forget something and some people come yelling at me ( I honestly don't even know if thats justified or not, I don't feel fit to judge anymore). But thats not the worst part, the worst part is I freaking cried in the office like an idiot and I couldn't stop, I still can't believe it, I feel sick and ashamed and I have no idea how I'm going to go back there tomorrow. If anyone has had similar issues coping with work, I'd really appreciate some advice on how to deal with this because I've got nothing.

Geez girl, not really. I always hate going back to where I just had a freak out like work or meetings, but I do even if I'm beating myself up for it. I usually find out it's not as bad as I'm thinking it is. I hope things work out for you.

[kaliope]

well welcome back...i am sorry that this happened to you ...i started crying at work and went home a couple weeks ago but everybody knows i have mental health issues. but if the job is so uncomfortable after all this time, it may be better to look for another place to work where you do not have to deal with so many people.

[Gray Rider]

For me anxiety is a killer in the workplace. What are your other options?

Stand up for yourself if anyone yells at you. If you aren't cutting it they can let you go, but it doesn't give anyone the right to pound on you. Look out for your health.

[alincdytyourmeds]

I have always cried workplace or other when I am confronted. Or frustrated! And especially when I am angry. I just thought I was a whimp, until I got dx'd 3 wks ago. So younare not alone. As far as working goes, that is an individual thing for me I like working, it gives me a sense of worth.

Originally Posted by alincdytyourmeds

I have always cried workplace or other when I am confronted. Or frustrated! And especially when I am angry. I just thought I was a whimp, until I got dx'd 3 wks ago. So younare not alone. As far as working goes, that is an individual thing for me I like working, it gives me a sense of worth.

Exactly. My pdoc is all thumbs about bipolars working because it promotes self esteem. He's like always, let's get you working! Which is me, a worker. I'm good with that.

[Manic Trance]

I'm a workaholic, trying to control it, I've heard of as many of us having that problem as those who have a hard time working. Anyhow, I've had a terrible Couple of days. I push myself to hard and then freak out and take things personally and then get paranoid and depressed and act crazy. It's awesome! Jk, its bs. That said, I'm pretty Damn good at what I do, people can just deal with it. You know? Went should psychologically normative people be excused grin having to deal with the needs and behaviors of mentally ill people? We're here, they can deal with it. That's what I try to feel about those moments when I am embarrassed.

[Manic Trance]

Sorry for typos, hopefully you get it. :-/

[Mrs. Mania]

I totally lost it with my charge nurse a couple weeks ago and got sent home. I was horrified at the thought of returning to work. Even feeling nauseous my next shift, legs so shaky I was sure I would trip walking in. I took a deep breath and held my head high. When things were slow, I took responsibility and apologized. Huge weight off my shoulders. People react to your actions, act cool, chances are that's how your coworkers will respond. & remember, this was a way bigger deal to you than to them!