[Espurr1989]

Last night I had a dream that I was manic and had decided to meet some friends who were touring the country with a school singing group. I am originally from Pennsylvania and most of my family lives there, so I had timed my flight to meet the friends when they were also in Pennsylvania so I could go and be with my family too. Unfortunately I met them when they were on the other side of the state from where I lived, so I was still about four hours away from where I wanted to be. I didn't bring any money or my ID with me (don't know how I would have managed that) and the group my friends were with kept moving to different cities each day, so I felt kind of stuck in the middle of nowhere. I didn't really know where I was so I wasn't sure how/was too embarrassed to ask my family in PA to come and get me. Even though my friends were travelling with a group, they were still paying for their food and other necessities out of pocket, and although one of my friends paid for my dinner the first night I was there, he told me he didn't have enough to cover much more than what he needed for himself. So I had no way to keep travelling with them without starving and I didn't have a way to get back home to my husband and my life.

The dream was really fragmented and now that I am awake, I realize that it doesn't make much sense, but while I was asleep it was really terrifying. I knew I was having trouble thinking for myself and making reasonable decisions and it felt exactly how I felt when I really was manic and psychotic last year. I just felt really out of control until I ended up in the hospital. I was losing important things that I needed to keep track of.

Now that I am awake I have been feeling anxious all morning. I hope I can calm down because I have to go to work in a few minutes and deal with a lot of people I don't know.

[secretgalaxy]

The exact same thing happened to me last night!!! I dreamt that I was really manic and ran away from home and went to a party. It was very fun, since it wasn't real. At the end, I kept telling people that I could fly back home and they called the cops to take me to a mental hospital (just got out of one 5-6 weeks ago) and I ran away from them and was on the run. Woke up after being caught and shipped away. The thing is that I am trying to control a manic episode right now and it is hard. I am worried that I may be put back into the hospital, as well.

Are worried about becoming manic? Or is this the time that you start becoming manic? Dreams can just be dreams as well, so if you haven't noticed a difference in real life, then I wouldn't worry about it.

[Espurr1989]

I'm glad I'm not the only one who did this.
I had a slight breakdown Sunday, but it was a depressive one. Otherwise my mood has been pretty stable at I'd say about a 3.5 or 4. I've only become manic the one time which was last year early April, so it may be that this time of year is getting close again. It could also be that since coming back to the forum, I have noticed many others say their baseline is at mildly depressed, and I'm starting to accept that my medication may be at the right level, whereas before that I kept wishing that I could stop taking my Seroquel (I'm on the lowest dose already) or bump my Zoloft back up to 100mg (that's what it was at before I became manic but not Seroquel at the time). Maybe my mind is just telling me that I shouldn't mess with anything and just work on other ways to get my baseline up a few notches. I don't want to become manic because the psychotic stuff can be scary and I don't want to deal with all the scrappy ER staff, but I miss actually feeling good about myself and being able to get things done like I could on the 100mg Zoloft right before full-blown mania.

[secretgalaxy]

Yea, being manic right now, the psychotic part is kind of scary to deal with. I would keep watching and see what happens. I personally wouldn't worry

[Espurr1989]

What do you usually do to keep hypomania from going to full-blown mania? I quit smoking weed a few weeks ago and I'm trying to cut way down on caffeine. I would drink so much coke since I work at a movie theater. It would help me be outgoing and lively to counteract the Seroquel, but coming down off of the caffeine just gets me too down sometimes. I know making sure to get enough sleep is a big one to keep from going manic too for a lot of people.

[secretgalaxy]

At the moment, since I just got diagnosed my pdoc is trying to control it. I have noticed that stress, caffeine, lack of sleep, and parties make me hypomanic, and then meds stop it from going full-blown manic at the moment, but it is really shaky still.