[kaliope]

this triggered me. any idea why?

Possible trigger:

i suppose they meant it to be an inspiration. so many people were such an inspiration. so much talent and success. but as i read some of the names, i thought of their stories, the struggles, the tragedy. i imagined vincent van gogh cutting off his ear. and i was sitting alongside kurt with his shot gun. and didnt sylvia off herself as well? why, oh, why would they put such horrific things when they are are trying to make a positive spin on mental illness. and here when i was totally telling t this morning that i had no ideas of hurting myself, i have no desire to fight this any longer. because this reminded me that i cant win. i have always known that this illness will take me out. i have fought so long and thought i beat it, but you know, here it has taken me down again, reminding me that i will never win. so as i sit here, i cant help visualizing myself sitting alongside kurt, a bottle of jack sitting on the floor before me, waiting for my turn.

[~Christina]

Awww hun

I am so sorry bipolar has lied and dragged you to this dark place, It a place, one of many, there are brighter places to be and your going to get back there, I know you will. Your so very strong. So strong even when right now you can't see it.

Bipolar is just terrible at times often no rhyme or reason That list is a trigger to me also , but it always cycles, it always cycles.

Your words have helped me many times and you didn't even know, But they did and they will again. For now, Be easy on yourself, Do self soothing, take care of you, Stay safe, this will turn around , Bipolar always does. Yes that list does make the outlook bleak, but its not.. There are millions of people living a life with joy hope and happiness and Bipolar , they just aren't all famous.

Your in my thoughts, gentle hugs and soothing love to you

[Skywalking]

The way I see it, every life is a pile of good things and… bad things. The good things don’t always soften the bad things, but vice versa, the bad things don’t necessarily spoil the good things or make them unimportant.

You have the strength to look at that list and see the good, just as you've seen the bad.

All that list shows is beepers winning through their illness to shine for the betterment of mankind In their own way. Something still to shoot for. Granted some are stronger than others. Bipolar inspires most, inspires to legendary status like Abraham Lincoln, Chuchill. We are more real than the normals, we reach for the higher stars. We are more inspired than most. We rock the world when we can. We have greater ideals, a vision. Some are lucky enough to take it on the world scale, others not so much. We're visionaries if we can ignore our down side. To die is to let bipolar win. Forget that

You just have to spin it in a positive way. They did do fabulous things. Try to think of the fact that they accomplished a lot of beauty.

And you can to.

[kaliope]

i already have.............im responsible for two laws being written,,,not because i did something wrong.........because i advocated...........i bought a lot of positive change...........ive left my foot print...........

[Crazy Hitch]

Originally Posted by kaliope

i already have.............im responsible for two laws being written,,,not because i did something wrong.........because i advocated...........i bought a lot of positive change...........ive left my foot print...........

Always proud of you (((kali)))