[HALLIEBETH87]

Im so angry right now! Anyone else have friends who "mean well" but just don't get it??

I told my friend I wanted to get my nose repierced and he starts talking about how its not a good decision and he thinks Im leaving my depression and going into mania. Its on my nerves for real! I saw my Dr yesterday and she didn't seem concerned at all. I do still have some depression but I don't think Im manic in the least!

How do I handle these people? Im really upset.

[HALLIEBETH87]

I got SO mad I couldn't stand it so I called my Dr and told her all the crap and how mad I was and after a few minutes she told this is "signs of your illness" and Im going into manic state. I hate this. Shes asking me to take more Zyprexa

[Crazy Hitch]

You sound like you're raging (((Hallie)))

I think I would rage too if I saw my pdoc one day and a friend told me the next day I was manic because I wanted to get my nose pierce.

I dunno.

That in itself would make me feel pretty damn angry.

But I'm not inside your head so I don't know if that's the only reason causing your anger right now.

[HALLIEBETH87]

Well yeah I mean I do have stuff goig on in my head but still. He just made me amd and I wanted to prove hime wrong!

[cashart10]

Yes, that would make me angry as well. My friends and family tend to think every experience I have makes me either manic or depressed so I understand your frustrations!

[HALLIEBETH87]

He's never done this to me though

[Velouria]

IMO, getting your nose [re]pierced is no big deal, unless your job would frown upon it. But you can always take it out. That's the beauty of piercings.

When I was in college I had my friend pierce my eyebrow with a needle or a safety pin (can't remember which). A year or so later (still in college) I got my nipples pierced (at a legit place) -- while tripping on acid.

So, you could totally be making a way more extreme decision. But that's just my opinion. I know I'm kind of playing devil's advocate, but I happen to be a fan of piercings.

Anyway, maybe just think about it for a little while and see if your mind changes. You already mentioned you were thinking about it -- you didn't go out and get it done at your first impulses. So that already shows self-control. I can understand why you'd be mad.

[HALLIEBETH87]

I mean I oculdnt go do it then if I wanted. I live an hour away from a place to go to and had my niece in the car. I don't think piercings are a big deal. I already have some! They were upset because it was "impulsive" thinking. *eye roll*

[Velouria]

Originally Posted by HALLIEBETH87

I mean I oculdnt go do it then if I wanted. I live an hour away from a place to go to and had my niece in the car. I don't think piercings are a big deal. I already have some! They were upset because it was "impulsive" thinking. *eye roll*

Ugh. But it wasn't impulsive behavior! People can't go into emergency mode (and shouldn't put you into emergency mode) over every little thing. That's counterproductive.

I bet if you'd said you wanted to get your ears pierced, it wouldn't have been as big a deal.

I think your doctor's main concern though, might have been how you reacted to her about what your friend said. Because you got so mad at it, it could be a sign of agitation. That might be where your doctor is coming from, and maybe she's retroactively labeling it as impulsive thinking because of that.

How did you react to your friend when he said he thinks you're leaving your depression and going into mania?

[HALLIEBETH87]

He said there were "signs" and I asked what they were. This was all via text. He said he was on his way somewhere so I took it he couldn't talk anymore. So I said I didn't see anything wrong with me and havea good day. He said that my message right there was meant to be sarcastic and hurtful. I informed him that I meant nothing more except HAVE A GOOD DAY and its unfair to assume that I was trying to hurtful because it was a dang text. Then he didn't say too much more. I was MAD but I managed not to explode on him.

Im just happy to not be depressed and suicidal anymore. I am still anxious and irritable some but hey! Im happy to be happy! I feel free! I feel excited! I feel like I can cope again. My Dr said I was "Chatty" in a way I am when I get elevated. *eye roll* And she said what goes up must come down and is convinced I sound/seem elevated for my usual self.

I feel good! du nuh nuh nuh nuh nuh I knew that I would...

[HALLIEBETH87]

She kept saying 'will you take the 10mg?' well, no. I didn't take it cause I feel great! great but not manic

[Velouria]

Originally Posted by HALLIEBETH87

He said there were "signs" and I asked what they were. This was all via text. He said he was on his way somewhere so I took it he couldn't talk anymore. So I said I didn't see anything wrong with me and havea good day. He said that my message right there was meant to be sarcastic and hurtful. I informed him that I meant nothing more except HAVE A GOOD DAY and its unfair to assume that I was trying to hurtful because it was a dang text. Then he didn't say too much more. I was MAD but I managed not to explode on him.

Im just happy to not be depressed and suicidal anymore. I am still anxious and irritable some but hey! Im happy to be happy! I feel free! I feel excited! I feel like I can cope again. My Dr said I was "Chatty" in a way I am when I get elevated. *eye roll* And she said what goes up must come down and is convinced I sound/seem elevated for my usual self.

I feel good! du nuh nuh nuh nuh nuh I knew that I would...

So...he said there were "signs" and then said he was on his way somewhere. That sounds kind of impulsive to me. Why would you bring that up if you were on your way somewhere? I think he was probably kicking himself for saying it, and then projecting that onto you.

I think it's great that you're not depressed and suicidal anymore! That's a horrible place to be in! And I think it's great that you feel like you can cope again. They should be nurturing that. How long were you depressed and suicidal?

Just remember they're not doing or saying these things to bring you down. They might be confused or concerned about the shift from bad to good (I'm not sure if it was gradual, but I know mine are often kinda more sudden than seems logical, even to me at times, if that makes sense).

What will the Zyprexa do if you take it?

Listen to your pdoc

[HALLIEBETH87]

I was feeling down for a good whole. I started feeling a bit better over a week then yesterday I felt great! a higher dose would probably make me sleepy

[Velouria]

Are you afraid it'll bring you down/make you depressed?

It will make you sleepy but it will also keep the mania away.

[HALLIEBETH87]

I'm not manic!

I'm about to see t.

[HALLIEBETH87]

T said he wasn't sure I am as he doesn't know me well-he's my t.

I had a hard time focusing. He's very straightforward and blunt.

[Velouria]

Have you ever been manic but not realized it until afterwards?

[HALLIEBETH87]

Yea...

But im not spending money or doing impulsive stuff. Yea I'm a bit chatty but even t mentioned I was talking mile a minute but I managed to calm down some in session. I had hard time keeping eye contact and focus but hey who's perfect??

Like I told him...since when us it wrong to be happy??

[Velouria]

I think it's good that you're happy. It's totally not wrong to be happy, it's great. And you deserve to be happy.

But you can still be happy and hypomanic, can't you? One doesn't necessarily invalidate the other.

[HALLIEBETH87]

I guess that's true....

[HALLIEBETH87]

My perfect mood was short lived. Not trying to hang on every emotion but man im easily ticked off today. It's annoying really because I'm actually still sorta happy! All well. Still better that depression I just got out if! I cried while crying earlier because I randomly hate my childhood memories and mourn that I didn't have a mom who cared for me. Random I know lol

All well

[HALLIEBETH87]

And dang! My neighbor was shooting outside and triggered panic in me. I used the breathing technique t taught me to calm down. Still sucks

[wiretwister]

Halliebeth you "seem" to be on the edge, just my take ..please take care..