[lunaticfringe]

I ask because lately I have been doing things that I really regret. I've acted on impulses that I should not have and now I'm feeling a lot of shame and guilt. Now I do not trust myself to make the right decisions when it comes to social interactions or anything else for that matter. So I'm just staying home for now.

Can anyone relate?

Trusting myself is an issue for me, too. Now that i have a dog and have to think of providing for her and any vet bills that may pop up, i've gotten pet insurance because i can't trust myself not to blow thru my savings when i'm manic. It's a preventive measure.

I also throw out medication i'm not using rather then stock-piling it to prevent ODs.

It's all part of learning to work WITH yourself.

[Capriciousness]

I guess for the most part I really try to trust myself to get help if I start to realize that I can't trust myself. When stable I trust myself I mean. And I trust myself to ask for help when I start to get the faintest inklings that I'm veering off course.

And yes I know exactly what you mean. That's when I sometimes have the "I'm just going to stop talking" feeling.

[wiretwister]

I think the key is to understand yourself, be kind and loving to yourself, forgive yourself... be sorry and apologize if you screw up but do not beat yourself up we are human and we all make mistakes,,,

[lunaticfringe]

Thanks...

I just can't seem to stop doing/saying these things and it's so not the person I want to be. I am filled with sorrow thinking of the things I've done and I want to rebuild my life and make a new name for myself. I want to go to school and lead a healthy and productive life and stop making bad choices.

I'm just not there yet...so I guess it's ok for me to stay home. I so want to get there. I feel like I'm going through a mourning period or something...it is a time of true acceptance. Unfortunately I have to wait at least another two to three weeks before I see a new doctor or NP. Sigh.

[sb_catcher7]

I don't trust my self I don trust anyone anymore

When I wasn't medicated, I didn't trust myself. But now under doctor care and medicated, I have more confidence in my decisions, so I trust myself. Like learning to trust someone else, I had to give it time for me to learn to trust myself.

[avlady]

yes i think learning to trust yourself is almost like learning to trust others too. sometimes we have to just do whatever it is we must do in order to help ourselves and others too. no one is going to trust you when you're doing risky bad behaviors that are visable to others and visa versa.you need to love yourself enough first to trust yourself enough too.

[Blitter2014]

I do not trust my judgement in financial matters and matters that relate to reading social ques or other peoples moods/ what they mean.I tend to read things wrong, see things that are not there or see the negatives when they are just having fun. I guess its a form of paranoia, thinking other people have it out for you. However I do trust myself when it comes to how I am feeling when I see my Pdoc. F

[Turtlesoup]

Kind of depends on where I am mood wise-I often use good judgment & make sound decisions but of course I have those times (especially if I'm manic) where I feel my judgment is impaired & I try to mange things that are way beyond my control with varying degrees of success (or lack thereof). It's like for me most things are not constant.

My "inner voice" has betrayed me so many times I no longer trust it. I think I wrote, somewhere else here on PC, that I finally beat it to death! Anyway, now I just keep to myself. It is my gift to the world...

[lunaticfringe]

Yeah I'm thinking I should probably just keep to myself for the forseeable future. I can't be trusted right now.

[RisuNeko]

I only half trust myself. Since I'm almost always in a state of depression (or at least that's the way it seems from my currently depressed point of view) I know I see things in black and white and catastrophize and have a lot of anxiety driving my decisions and my actions, but that doesn't mean I'm not also able to reflect and see where I'm going wrong. I just wish I was better able to do something about the bad choices I make so that I could learn to trust myself.

[stressedmama]

Originally Posted by sb_catcher7

I don't trust my self I don trust anyone anymore

It's sad, but burn me once, shame on you, burn me twice, shame on me. And unfortunately I've been burned quite a few times.

[thatguyinla626]

ive made some horrible mistakes. Even "normal" people make them. Forgive YOURSELF and move on DO NOT be ashamed hold your head high and be confident that you like others can learn from the mistake just try not to let it happen again, and again.

Through good decisions and mistakes, myself was the only person "I" trusted disregarding religion. However, ever since my ordeal hit me like a freight train, I don't trust myself anymore. I have even scared myself a couple of times. I think I have truly lost my sanity. Isolation doesn't help, but it's best for me. What do I know though? I can't focus on one plan very long, so how do I know what's best for me? I sure don't trust others such as a therapist or dr. for what's best because doing their job and getting paid is where their ultimate interests are. I do see them regularly, but I don't trust them.

Alice N' Chains sang it the only way I know how to describe me. "Down In A Hole"