in awful state of mind

Not really sure what is going with me lately. Depressed, anxious, insomniac...... and worst of all getting in this existential funk that is so hard to fight. On top of that I feel so ****ing exhausted....but restless at the same time.

Worries for the future prevent me from feeling content in the moment... and when I actually do feel content, I feel guilty about it, because with situation out there so miserable... it does not feel right to feel happy.

No idea what to do. There isn't probably much to do but going on, one day at time. Eventhough at times it feels pointless... so pointless....

I am in a bad way too so I am sorry all I can give are words of encouragement. I hope you figure out a way to get through

Thinking of you and hoping you find some good moments in the chaos.

Im in the same boat. . I hope you get to feeling better soon

I'm so sorry. I know what helps me doesn't help everyone, but if you have someone close to you that you trust, cuddling is psychologically proven to reduce depression. I know when I'm not ok, i need nothing more than to be held or hold someone. Not for everyone, but worth a shot.

You said it: one day at a time.

In depressive dips, it seems so mundane. But listen to yourself. What can you do about it? Is your mind saying you need to speak to a doctor, a therapist, a friend? Do you need a hospital stay? Do you need a "me day"? Do you need to do some service?

Sometimes emotions are telling us something.

When you cant figure it out most of the time, like me, I just try to hold on to my schedule and do a lot of "me" oriented hobbies.

thanks everybody so so much....

took some SJW tincture, although I honestly doubt it will do much...

and meanwhile, i can pretend to be totally fine and try to look for good omens.... or something.

Venus,

I'm sorry that the sky is falling all at once. I hope the SJW helps a least even a little bit. Have you tried your tea blend for help with sleeping?

Any chance of even working on a plan for future travels? I know your travels have always seemed to perk you up in the past.

I guess if all else fails, white knuckle this wave and ride it out, that is my current mode of coping at the moment.

( insert non hug here)

I am planning on going to Kyïv, if it's at least bit safe.

Feeling a wee bit better, but still restless, effing sad and anxious.

Krishnamurti's quote in your signature is one of my favorites which often puts me deep in thought. We are ill; that much is true. But the remainder of society do some pretty horrific things that even in our own unwell state, we know to be wrong. Anyway...

I can agree with this. Sometimes you need to feel a physical connection for the benefit of your mind. Someone you can find comfort with and remind you that hey, you're alive. Today was tough, tomorrow might be the same, but you're still here.

Sending a virtual one your way.

I'm so sorry the sadness shyt has hit the fan.


I hope it doesn't get any worse, and that your SJW, tea as well as plans to travel helps you to not slide down any further.


I'm thinking of you Venus


You've had an existential crisis before, you waded your way through it.


I know this much though, you matter, you live a life that matters. Not just to yourself and your loved ones, but for countless strangers as well.


It's not pointless. None of it is, and neither are you.

Someone must survive and thrive being happy and productive or there sacrifice will be in vain..this is what they would want.....live your life to the fullest .... make there struggle have meaning.....God bless ..
Randy.

Sending positive energies and healing thoughts your way, venusss.