So I'm manic and exhausted I have been taking care of my son and working at night at a part time job and my husband and I are having financial issues I have been putting together our room and my sons room at my parents house bc we are moved in with them and my husband doesn't do anything when he gets home bc he can't bc he has back problems he works all day long and help pay the bills But I feel so alone and so tired and I am manic irrated and need sleep but i can't bc I have to take care of my son my husband has off today and we can't get along and that caused us to yell at each other and cuss at each other and stuff I told him I needed to go to the store by myself and our son bc I can't be around him without arguing he doesn't get that I need to be by myself and just breathe until today when I can finally go to sleep when I'm manic there is no getting through to me and it's true I tried to tell him to leave me alone but he doesn't and makes it worse you can't reason with a bipolar manic person and he makes it worse. He told me I need to be taking my zoolfot but that crap makes me so depressed I can't get out of bed and I rather be manic than depressed to not working for me so I need to go to the pshychtrist to find what's right for me or its over with my marriage but I can't get into the pshychirst till the 29 I was cussing so much at my husband and arguing he said sometimes he thinks I am a demon or something that hurts my feelings a lot bc I know it isn't me saying these things it's like I can't control what I am saying does anyone else feel this way has anyone else been called a demon or am I just cursed and mean I am not a hateful person I know it's the disease and it causes me to say mean things idk who else gets this way idk I just wish I would be a normal human and not suffer from bipolar

[Hexagram]

Any chance that you could call your psychiatrist and request an emergency consultation? Your mania sounds hard and at some point you'll be paying for it with a depression of equal and opposite force.

All the pschytrist here are booked I haven't even gotten a chance to go in once yet my first visit is on the 29

[Disorder7]

When you have a chance to sleep, take over the counter Benadryl. 25 mg will probably put you out.
You MUST sleep or you're going to implode.

Take care.

[Crazy Hitch]

Yeah I'm sorry this is hard.

Hang in there!

Hope you have a good playlist of your favourite relaxation music on hand.

And a bit of me time away from an environment that may be distracting you helps too; so if you need to take a 5 minute breather; excuse yourself; and go find some quiete space; and focus on some breathing techniques.

[Sinking Feeling]

Actually for me more important then sleep is having my mood stabilized otherwise I can be all over the map and then some! I find while I certainly enjoy sleeping 10 hours when I can, even just 2 hours is enough some times if I'm not in a mixed episode.

[Crazy Hitch]

Yes. I totally agree. Mood stabilisers help me heaps. Thank you for pointing this out.

[BastetsMuse]

Being called a demon would hurt my feelings, too! You're doing the best you can; keep telling yourself that as you count down to the 29th.