[doublenickel]

well once again my life turns into a giant **** storm. if i look at it touch it or think about it then it instantly turns to ****. i thought i had found a woman who i could finally share my life with and said she was willing to handle me and this crap. yea well needless to say that blew up in my face like an m-80 with a short fuse. now im left struggling to air after she used me like a diving board. how are people with bpd supposed to find love and happiness?

[gayleggg]

I'm sorry that you are going through such a rough time right now. Relationships are harder when we have to deal with mental health, but they are possible. My husband and I have been married for 17 years. It certainly hasn't been easy, but we have made it over some very rocky times. Don't give up hope.

[doublenickel]

my ex tells me that she know i can learn to be the man that can handle this and stand on my own blah blah blah. she is very quick to forget that when i met her i was single and living alone handling my bp i thought very well. i choose to enter a relationship with her and i gave her heads up about everything and warning signs the whole nine. of course it goes in ine earand out the other. she says that i need to fix me for me well stupid i can do that. i want that special someone that your heart longs for everytime they are gone and u get buterflies when u see them. i cant fix that on my own it takes two and an effortt needless to say she still is yet to grasp any of the issues i face daily and in a relationship

[Homeira]

I have made my peace with being single a long time ago. I have decided that single suits me best. It works for me. I actually find it quite liberating to be single! Then I can deal with my issues myself, and not having to go through the whole emotional mess of trying to make a relationship work. (trying to have a relationship has been stressful for me). Too bad we live in a culture that worships the idea of coupledom, and present being single as some kind of a bad thing. Which it isn`t at all...

P.S. Must add that I agree with Hooligans post below. Right now you are dealing woth a lot of pain and sadness, but eventually it will get better.

[Crazy Hitch]

No two ways about it -doublenickel

This is a difficult time.

Bipolar diagnosis or NO Bipolar diagnosis anyone would be in a pretty tough position as well just like you are right now.

The aftermath of any relationship ending is a tough one to swallow.

And yes, anyone would be asking:

"Is it because of this? Or that? Or what? And if it was because of this - can I possibly have another relationship again or is this beyond hopeless for any future prospects?

This is called Intrusive Thoughts.

"Am I doomed to never have another relationship because of my Bipolar? Is there ever any hope? I mean look how badly this one ended!" says doublenickel.

So I just wanted to say.

There is ALWAYS hope.

Yeah I mean look our symptoms are a bugger at the best of times.

I can get angry, anxious, miserable, loud, obnoxious but yeah I work on strategies of Self Awareness in order to mitigate these symptoms around those I love. I dont always get it perfect but hey I tried and I will keep trying.

Self reflection helps heaps for me too.

I can't continue to make the same mistakes.

If I speak too loudly to my partner because I am feeling irritation and impatient because of mania?

I learn the lesson.

I've told him to give him the heads up - when I start to feel this impending sense of irritation and irritability and he's trying to have a conversation with me and it's more than I can handle, I simply state - "I can not have this conversation with you right now. Please give me a few minutes. I will come back to you in a few minutes."

[Row Jimmy]

Going through the same thing right now.....can't get consistent with my behavior. If it means anything, you are not alone, brother.