While manic I cheated on my husband idk why I didn't it and I'm still like at that point where I didn't think its wrong but I know it's wrong I need help I mean he hasn't been nice to me for along time and threatens divorce and I just couldn't help it and I was on full mania and felt promiscuous idk I thought I loved my husband but truth is I don't know if I do he is on all kinds of drugs I told my husband I wanted a divorce and I cheated I messed up you know it's hard to control myself I know a lot of it had to do with my bipolar it sucks we have a son but I don't think he should have two parents that argue all the time and fight all the time where it gets bad especially when I'm manic I just don't know what to do I know I'll always be manic I shouldnt have done that I should be alone I think it's the best but I woke up today and my husband dropped off my son at his friends so I'm alone I iust cheated on my husband I just feel awful I am sorry when it really kicks in what I did idk how I'm gonna handle it and I have work today my life is not a good one I'll always be bipolar and the zoolfot and seroquel aren't working for me

I'd rather be alone than hurt my hausband even when he is mean to me

[Victoria'smom]

When do you see pdoc again? can you call and say the meds aren't working?

I'm going to

[Disorder7]

I did the same thing. You have to realize it's not bipolar; it's you.

[Disorder7]

I know everyone is going to say, " oh no, she couldn't help it. She's bipolar."

Whatever.

Originally Posted by Disorder7

I know everyone is going to say, " oh no, she couldn't help it. She's bipolar."

Whatever. She sucks as a wife.

While I agree that adults are responsible for their actions, regardless of circumstances/illnesses, your language could have been more respectful. You are leaping to conclusions. One bad decision does not make someone a bad wife/person overall.

[UCMATH]

Hey there, Sky101. I don't really have any advice for you, but I'm sending you a virtual hug!

Originally Posted by Disorder7

I did the same thing. You have to realize it's not bipolar; it's you. You suck as a wife.

Whoa, whoa, whoa. I'm not going to say that she couldn't help it because of her illness. I'm not even going to give my personal opinion about it, because what I think doesn't matter very much.

The way you worded this is callous. I don't know if that was intentional or not. You may not think her actions were good, but you don't need to insult her. All of us do bad things and make mistakes; it doesn't help to put each other down when we make them.

Sky you seem very unhappy with your marriage in general. Marriage Counseling?

Bipolar is not a good excuse to hurt or cheat on your husband.

[Crazy Hitch]

From what you have written this sounds like a very difficult position in your relationship.

May you and your husband move in the direction that serves both of your best interests well in the long run from this point forward.

[Sunnyhunny00]

When put in a difficult position such as this in a marriage, you are forced to realize the amount of or lack of love and commitment. This will either make your marriage stronger, or allow you two to move on separately.

I wish you the best in what is to come! I hope things work out in the best interest of every one.

[Steiner of Thule]

You should get a divorce

[iaem85]

Originally Posted by Sky101

While manic I cheated on my husband idk why I didn't it and I'm still like at that point where I didn't think its wrong but I know it's wrong I need help I mean he hasn't been nice to me for along time and threatens divorce and I just couldn't help it and I was on full mania and felt promiscuous idk I thought I loved my husband but truth is I don't know if I do he is on all kinds of drugs I told my husband I wanted a divorce and I cheated I messed up you know it's hard to control myself I know a lot of it had to do with my bipolar it sucks we have a son but I don't think he should have two parents that argue all the time and fight all the time where it gets bad especially when I'm manic I just don't know what to do I know I'll always be manic I shouldnt have done that I should be alone I think it's the best but I woke up today and my husband dropped off my son at his friends so I'm alone I iust cheated on my husband I just feel awful I am sorry when it really kicks in what I did idk how I'm gonna handle it and I have work today my life is not a good one I'll always be bipolar and the zoolfot and seroquel aren't working for me

Hi Sky 101,

I can relate to you as well. I am not married but I've been with my bf for almost 4 years now and we've been living together for 3 yrs.

He's like this sweet and supportive person. And still I cheated on him last summer.

I was only taking Zoloft which made me very manic. And I thought I was just feeling good about myself, I was feeling adventurous and flirty.
It was almost like I wanted to invent a new persona, someone who could be carefree, someone who wasn't me.

I never told him and I obviously felt very ****** about myself afterwards.
So try not to beat yourself up because of this and like someone has mentioned previously, talk to your doctor about the meds not working.

I am going to tell you something I am always reminding myself: "This too shall pass".

Hang in there!

[Turtlesoup]

I did that in my first marriage so I understand where your coming from-it sounds like a difficult situation all the way around. I also think you should call your pdoc to do what you need to get the mania under control. Also seeing a T with your husband would probably help you both move forward. So sorry you are going through this but it can get better Take care & let us know how you are doing.

[ThunderGoddess]

I know this weight is probably really weighing heavy on you today especially having to go into work feeling so confused and guilty. I agree with you on raising your son around parents who are not fighting it can be really frightening I experienced it first hand and I wish my parents had divorced sooner because it was a never ending argument so maybe couples therapy could help you two get back on track if that is something you are interested in.
Just be gentle with yourself people make mistakes no one is perfect, try your very best to not let it happen again because it will only cause you more pain and further complicate things. I think a therapy session would help you get out your emotions and figure out what is best for your family. I wish you the best.

Awww sweety, it's happened and now it's over with. We need to learn from this or make some real life decisions for you. I can see where everything could lead up to the event like the state of your marriage, the home enviroment, the way you feel, and top it all off with mania. It sounds like everything was stacked against you to begin with which clouded your judgement.

Please don't beat yourself up too bad over this. It's just a wake up call that things have got to change for the better. I hope you are feeling better.

[Anonymous37919]

Cheating on somebody is very serious. I don't agree with two-timing a loved one. I think you need to try to see it from your husband's perspective.

He wasn't a loved one he was abusive and controlling and on street drugs but your right I shouldn't of cheated on him.. Just divorced him first!!

I'm going to check myself in to a psych hospital! Tonight goodbye for now!

[ofthevalley]

Good luck to you!