[Sunnyhunny00]

I had my neices over yesterday. They stayed the night. I just took them home.

My sister is a lot like my mother used to be. It's just the only way she's ever known to live. My nieces live a similar life as my own as a child. It makes me sad.

I feel better when they are here. It's like I'm doing something for them that I wish someone could have done for me. Take me out of that terrible environment and show me another way of life, even for a day.

I may be messed up but I can show those children a good life different from what they are accustomed to. I pray I can make an impact in their life great enough to stop the cycle.

Consistent rules, outside play, coloring time, dinner as a family. Bath time, story time, and being tucked in and kissed goodnight.

I look at them, and I see myself and my sisters as a child. I teach them the things I wish I was taught before it was too late.

I tell them about angels. I teach them to scream and run if someone touches their privates. I remind them that they are beautiful.

Ironically enough, I'm 100x more stressed when they are here but 100x more in control of myself.

It's almost like a therapy for me. I look back in my life and feel anger and resentment for being unable to change it. When they are with me, I feel like I am changing something. Even small... I'm showing them that there is love and happiness in this world.

I'm not sure of the point in this post. I'm just putting it out there because it helps me feel better.

Is there anything in your life that makes an impact on you while helping others?

[gayleggg]

First, thank you for spacing out your narrative, as I have a problem concentrating on a wall of text.

Second, it sounds like you are making a big difference in the lives of your nieces. Giving them an idea of what life can be like. Sounds like you are giving them a bigger picture of life. One that is positive. Keep up the good work.

I'm sorry that your childhood was so hard and that there wasn't anyone there for you. But it looks like you turned out just fine, being that you are able to focus on others and their needs.

You are being a great aunt and I'm sure one that will be remember throughout your nieces lives.

[tentoedsloth]

I don't have much to say, and I can't find an applause smilie. But I think it's great that you're doing that. It's Wins all around.