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Jun 11, 2015, 01:03 PM
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I miss my highly creative, manic mind. Honestly this soul crushing depression/flatness is just awful. I don't know what to do. I go through my days, a majority of the time not remembering what I had just set out to do. Ugh.
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Jun 11, 2015, 01:27 PM
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I don't miss my mania, i get too irritable and i dont know what the frig to do with myself because I want to do a million things at once! I do miss the motivation and the drive and the energy though
Hugs rtr xx
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Jun 11, 2015, 01:37 PM
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I don't miss mine. It was horrible.
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Jun 11, 2015, 02:10 PM
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I don't miss mine either. They are too destructive. Never productive.
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Jun 11, 2015, 02:14 PM
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I miss the good parts for sure. How could I not? They were out of this world. I don't want any mania again though because the bad parts are too horrible.
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Jun 11, 2015, 02:16 PM
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I think I miss the energy and creativity, but I forget the bad that inevitably cycles in. I hope someday I can find a balance between the out of control highs and the walking zombie feeling.
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And I miss the days of a life still permanent Mourn the years before I got carried away So now I'm staring at the interstate screaming at myself, Hey, I wanna get better! Bleachers - I Wanna Get Better |
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Jun 11, 2015, 04:17 PM
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Yeah I understand. I think this too when I miss the high.
For me, personally, my mania always somehow tends to have not so nice consequences. I can be pretty self destructive. I just have to remind myself of this when I 'miss' the high. But that's just me, personally. Because all of my symptoms go way out of control. 
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Jun 11, 2015, 04:22 PM
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I spin in circles and get no where. The high energy gets on my nerve and won't stop. Then since I'm getting manic, I'm going to be depressed.
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Jun 11, 2015, 09:26 PM
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i miss the good euphoric i am RULER OF THE WORLD!!! manias
but of course they never stay that way and since i truly cant live inpatient (  ) im trying out stability
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Jun 11, 2015, 10:33 PM
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Jun 12, 2015, 12:47 AM
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I doubt I ever got to full blown mania, and I'm glad for that...because I did so so much damage at hypomanic levels I sure as hell didn't need another 'gear'.
Lol Been re-arranging the house for lots of visitors coming, so I'm taking down my man cave. 20 times a day I stand there and shake my head at my thinking when I set it up before I got treatment. The over spending and over buying and over everything. Not only the things I bought, but the amount...I couldn't have used all this stuff if I would have lived three lifetimes. Blows me away that I got from there...to here. And I know what I was thinking...that I was all creative, and visionary and artsy-fartsy making things and coming up with ideas. But I was kidding myself...I didn't do squat. All the things I obsessed over didn't amount to a hill of beans at the end of the day. It was just a grand waste of money and time. So mania, hypomania, whatever you want to call yourself...just stay away from me...you've had your fun. Now just let me rest! |
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Jun 12, 2015, 11:32 AM
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hahah  or the omg did i really sleep with him? that comes later hahha
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Jun 12, 2015, 02:09 PM
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I had a minister once confuse a manic day for my being touched by the Holy Spirit..... really? Really?
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Jun 12, 2015, 02:38 PM
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I miss the euphoric, creative, motivating manias, but not the agitation or paranoia of the others.
I look back at mania, though, and wonder what my life would be like if I had actually followed trough with all the things I signed up for while manic. I wonder if I would be better or worse off.
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