[earthangel1]

Right now I am going through a time where I have no emotions, people say my personality has changed. I drift off constantly into daydreaming, and I don't know what to say in conversations. This all happened ever since I got off of clonazepam. I'm a totally different person now. I don't always shower or brush my teeth like I always did. My apartment is littered in filth and I never leave my apartment. I don't know if getting off clonazepam caused this. I am on risperdal but I am also having horrible confusion and dissociation. Someone help. This is the most terrible point in my life.

[LettinG0]

I am so sorry you are going through this stuff.....have you let your pdoc know what is happening?

[CopperStar]

Were you taking it for anxiety. When I am too overwhelmed my self-care goes right down the drain. I ignore everything from showering to laundry to dishes to pretty much everything. I just suck myself into my own head and hide there. It's like being in a bunker.

[~Christina]

Can you call your Pdoc ? Do you have family or friends that can offer support?

[earthangel1]

I am seeing a new pdoc next week so I don't have one to call right now.

[Travelinglady]

Oh, my. I can sure relate. I am sort of in an upswing now (I hope I don't get too up!), so I am showering and dressing most days and working on the house.

Even though I am bipolar, I take small doses of three antidepressants. Would your current doctor consider an antidepressant for you?

I seem to remember that Risperdal really brings folks "down", in the sense of not being so emotionally wishy-washy. I took it for awhile and am glad I am off of it.

Maybe going off the Klonopin took away the good effects of reducing anxiety and maybe giving you more energy? And you're just left with the Risperdal's effects. I am trying to get off of Klonopin myself, slowly.

I found that Cymbalta helps perk me up more, allowing me to be more active and happy. I have fibromyalgia, so it seems to help a bit with pain, and it's also an antidepressant.

Keep us informed. We care. I hope you feel better soon. At least you can talk to your doctor before too long. In the meantime, be good to yourself. Would are some things you usually like to do and/or give you comfort?

Risperdal totally wiped me out in terms of feeling and being able to express emotions. I didn't laugh and barely smiled the whole time I was on it (five months or so).

[Crazy Hitch]

Some medications that I have been on in the past gave me what my pdoc described as a "blunted" effect. Couldn't tell if I was happy / sad. There was just no expression there at all. Just a blank stare.

I'm sorry that you seem to be having symptoms that might be caused from your meds.

I hope that for you when you see your pdoc you will be able to get some answers to your questions

It's not nice being like this.

[Lonlin3zz]

I can relate to most extent in your situation, since it happened to me countless of times.

There were days I woke up with a really foul mood due to my downswings. I could not bring myself out of the bed at all. Even if I did, I couldn't put effort into brushing my teeth at all, tidying up my bed, and even get myself a cup of water at regular interval despite myself noticing that I was starting to feel thirsty.

It was the period of time I drifted away from my usual routine, I had no motivations to even make my day productive. I just sat down and started grinding out on Runescape, but I felt really empty and choked with sadness when the bad memories start to flood my mind. I got off the game when my inner energy was too low for me to play for long hours.

Like you, I tend to drift off into daydreaming about the good old times between me and her, mixed with some infatuations. One moment, I smile to myself for knowing her and the next, I was dying to reach for a state of emotional numbness because it was too much for me to handle, knowing that I wouldn't have gotten into an awkward state if I had been wiser.

Times like this, I had no one to talk to, since my texting buddy cut off with me long ago. It was a blow to me, that I had to talk myself in letting time pass and I will cycle back to upswing.

I acknowledge that it's not something that we have intentions to avoid cleaning up of our house. You are not alone at all, I'm willing to offer a listening ear if you wish to talk to me in private.

[Wander]

Originally Posted by bpenniman

Right now I am going through a time where I have no emotions, people say my personality has changed. I drift off constantly into daydreaming, and I don't know what to say in conversations. This all happened ever since I got off of clonazepam. I'm a totally different person now. I don't always shower or brush my teeth like I always did. My apartment is littered in filth and I never leave my apartment. I don't know if getting off clonazepam caused this. I am on risperdal but I am also having horrible confusion and dissociation. Someone help. This is the most terrible point in my life.

Have you been through any trauma? That can make you dissociate and have blunted emotions. If not then it is either the BP or the meds or both. I really feel for you having to go through each day in such torment. Hopefully your new pdoc can help you get through this. For now feel free to post as much as you like if it helps. Take care.