[TheGoatKing333]

I woke up and had a ton of intrusive and suicidal thoughts. I waited in bed until I had to get up.

Possible trigger:

I walked over to my kitchen and grabbed a steak knife and put it on my wrist and started to slice slowly but it didn't do anything.

Then I called my mom crying and told her what happen and she came home from work and was helping me out. I called in sick to work and didn't go today. I feel stupid for what I did. I don't want to hurt myself. I just don't want to feel like **** anymore. I've been depressed for about a month.

Possible trigger:

I was thinking about jumping in front of a train. I looked up ways to die that are painless.

I don't want to die. I just want to get better. Tomorrow I'm seeing a nurse practitioner before I see my new psychiatrist on the 16th. Hopefully I can get a medicine adjustment that works or helps my depression a little bit more. I feel really ****ing stupid for almost cutting myself.

[HALLIEBETH87]

im sorry I have no advice I can give. we're here for you.

please post a trigger warning in the future on this subject.

I hope you feel better.

[ducky2030]

Ive been there...I think finding a distraction will keep the suicidal thoughts at bay until you see a doctor...whatever your hobbies or interest are would be something to look into I know its hard but you have to force yourself to focus on something to occupy your mind

I don't know what to say other than don't do it. Please

Originally Posted by TheGoatKing333

I woke up and had a ton of intrusive and suicidal thoughts. I waited in bed until I had to get up.

Possible trigger:

I walked over to my kitchen and grabbed a steak knife and put it on my wrist and started to slice slowly but it didn't do anything.

Then I called my mom crying and told her what happen and she came home from work and was helping me out. I called in sick to work and didn't go today. I feel stupid for what I did. I don't want to hurt myself. I just don't want to feel like **** anymore. I've been depressed for about a month.

Possible trigger:

I was thinking about jumping in front of a train. I looked up ways to die that are painless.

I don't want to die. I just want to get better. Tomorrow I'm seeing a nurse practitioner before I see my new psychiatrist on the 16th. Hopefully I can get a medicine adjustment that works or helps my depression a little bit more. I feel really ****ing stupid for almost cutting myself.

((((goat king))))

[Victoria'smom]

Hugs, I've been there too. Hopefully the nurse is helpful if not go to the hospital and tell them that you need a medication adjustment. It's about a four day stay.

[Hashi/bipolar mom]

I hope you are doing better today. I think we have all been there as far as wanting to end the pain. Don't give up! Hugs

[gina_re]

I was feeling this way a couple of weeks ago, but I didn't have the "courage" to actually get up and do it. So I feel your pain. I'm so sorry you feel this way and hope you get the help you need soon. I know it's easier said than done, but it does get better. Please take care of yourself!