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#1
Jun 22, 2015, 05:55 PM
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I'm thinking us bipolars have a much more interesting life to live. When things were great they were great... Now when things are great there just ok. Things in life that once were out of this world are now just pretty good.. Aka sex... So life is just ok... Now I can see why people quit taking there meds.. If I didn't have kids I'd be getting off them too
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#2
Jun 22, 2015, 06:29 PM
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Stability is confusing, boring, stressful and very very boring. Normal feels a bit depressed. I've been zoning out for hours.
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#3
Jun 22, 2015, 06:39 PM
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I've had a lot of experiences over the years while without medication that I do not regret in the least, they were amazing. However I have also had plenty of experiences that were absolutely devastating. Don't get to cherry pick the good stuff. And when the bad episodes happen, I either get my whole life wrecked, or someone else has to be burdened with saving me, or both. It is a bittersweet thing to say goodbye to some things, in order to defeat other things.
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#4
Jun 22, 2015, 07:07 PM
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I think this quite often when I'm stable too
 (Because I tend to forget how exhausting mania can be if it goes on for months ... how reckless I can be ... how many foolish decisions I can make ... how much I can suffer the consequences of a manic episode ... these thoughts seem far away when I'm wanting to chase the high) sigh |
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Jun 22, 2015, 07:55 PM
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Indeed. It feels as if nothing were happening and feelings were not so real, but buffered.
But the other side of things is not all nice, that is the problem. It has been at various times hell for me. |
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Jun 22, 2015, 09:00 PM
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I would give anything for stability right now. I'm drowning. And, in this crowd of people right now I feel extremely paranoid and suffocated. I just hear a sea of voices. Today, I heard a sea of voices coming out of my daughters sound machine. God how I wish those had frequencies. I have heard this woman's voice outside of the radio now so I'm not sure if a woman's voice is real or not real. I haven't know stability for too long a time and I wonder if I ever will again. This is one of the reasons I'm done.
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| Anonymous200280, jacky8807, UpDownMiddleGround
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#7
Jun 22, 2015, 09:30 PM
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I agree with cash.
I would love stability right now. Stability = awesome. I mean, I don't really know what I am right now (mood wise), but I know it's not stable, and it's not so nice. And my mania in january wasn't so nice. It was horrible. So maybe I'd feel different about this whole stability thing if I had happy, fluffy cloud manias, instead of frenzied, paranoid, anxiety ridden, voices screaming in my head, loss of reality manias.
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Jun 22, 2015, 10:47 PM
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One minute, you complain about being manic or depressed. Then the next, you complain about being stable. Can't you see that this kind of thinking is a lose - lose situation? So what if being stable is boring, at least your brain isn't damaged while stable. Just think about that and let that sink in. Don't you want to win?
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Jun 22, 2015, 10:54 PM
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Hey, I said I want to be stable.
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Jun 22, 2015, 11:10 PM
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being stable for the first time in a looooong time....its good. and by stable i dont mean depressed because that is not stable. i am at a point where i am actually balanced and it IS WIERD compared to the craziness of before but its better in so many ways.....the basic one is that im not IP every turn of the week lol.
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Jun 23, 2015, 03:27 PM
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I understand people saying stable is awesome... It's extremely awesome to begin with... Letting things roll of your shoulders... Hearing clearly for the first time in ever.. Not trying to sabotage my marriage by my finicky wired mind not to mention mixed episodes.. Yeah it is awesome but after a long time of the stable mundane way of things you start to miss the "race" sometimes..no know in hindsight it's not the best idea but you can't fault me for wanting the best of both worlds..
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