[czarina1984]

I've done so many med changes in the last few years and I am still scared of them. I got my lithium levels back this morning so I will be changing that plus my anti depressant and the seroquel because we can't change the doses up without bad side effects but they aren't doing enough where they are. At best I am counting on losing the next week to getting adjusted and those initial side effects. I trust my dr but right now I feel really alone going into this appointment Wed.

Any advice as to how you force yourself to do this over and over?

[Blue_Bird]

Is there anyone you could bring with you to the appointment and maybe check in on you the first few days of the new meds to make sure you're alright?

[czarina1984]

No. I'm on my own for this stuff. If something happens it would be a couple days before anyone will know.

[CopperStar]

Whenever I am considering meds at all, like recently actually - appointment to start meds is in about a week - the only way I can usually deal with it is to just let go in a way. I tend to get a lot of suicidal ideation issues, and so I try to just channel that into a more helpful direction, sort of self-trickery I guess. Like if I'm so done at such a point that I'm considering suicide, then what should I really care about trying medication anyway. If I really feel like things can't possibly get any more hopeless and miserable, then what do I have to lose. Sometimes for me trying medication feels sort of like suicide. I see it as euthanizing my mind in a way, so it's like a compromise.. kill the mind, kill the thoughts, kill the illness.. but not the body.

It's kinda weird because I feel we're always told to not give up, to keep fighting, to keep trying, etc. I understand it, but I think that sometimes in order to make progress, you have to allow yourself to surrender a little bit.

[BlackSheep79]

I'm going thru exactly what your going thru, and what I've gone thru over and over again. I just did a med change Friday, I was hoping for the best but knew it wouldn't. My pdoc said to call today and report how I'm doing. I did and left a message of how I'm not sleeping well at all and feel nauseous and dizzy. I just got home and had a message telling me to wait it out until Friday and call because he thinks my body is still adjusting. I trust him like you do but I feel like ****. I work a weird schedule and start my work week on Friday. I need to be able to sleep and not feel like this when I go to work. So me too for feeling like crap while I "might" feel better while adjusting all week.

I really have no advice because changing meds always turns out to be a disappointment. I just know I can't give up. If I don't do the meds everything I have worked for will go down the drain. That's what keeps me going, my husband, my dogs, my job, my house, etc. Your not alone

[czarina1984]

I actually like that point of view. I'm going to have to use it.

You know hun, I don't take meds for me. I take it for those that have to deal with me, I care for their well being. After a lifetime of cray cray, I'm in His hands, but others are in mine.

I'm so sorry that this is happening to you. I hope this is your winner.

[Crazy Hitch]

I tread with caution when it comes to med changes too, because some don't always work out.

However, I have to remind myself that some do ... and I usually don't notice a hell of alot of difference before the 3-6 week mark is up