[Capriciousness]

Like I said I'm sure it is actually fine it. I will just have to see if I can get over it enough to share on here. As it is I am watching my words so it doesn't get indexed.

It was just rather a shock to see a list of posts of the Internet search. Very exposing feeling. And that is something I have a huge personal issue with.

I'm not on things like Facebook etc. I hate that stuff. I know lots of people now bare their souls and a lot else all over the Internet but I do not.

Anyway whatever. I'll get over it. I get over a lot of ****.

[Capriciousness]

okay i feel betterish

Thanks for your support everyone.

Awesome people!

[CopperStar]

Originally Posted by sidestepper

My big worry is that family might find the site and know it's me. My profile is pretty thin and doesn't list my location but anyone following my postings would be able to figure out what state I live in. I don't post much about family for that reason.

They shouldn't be creepin around trying to play detective, though, and if they do, it's their set of issues and their problem. There are support sites and forums for loved ones of people with mental illness, with tons of helpful information catered to their perspective, to help them cope, understand, etc.

My life experiences might just make me feel different, I dunno. Neither of my parents ever knew the meaning of the word "boundaries". My mother is extremely invasive, entitled and controlling. She sees herself as this master manipulator and has practically no sense of shame about it. So I became weirdly desensitized to it. To the point that it was like, if she snoops and gets upset, she deserves it, and I don't care. And if she tries to use certain things against me, the joke is on her, because I expect nothing less in advance and operate accordingly. And at some point this perspective just expanded to the entire world.

[Shadesofdark]

I am not real worried about it, I mean I post my state and meds, so I could probably be found if someone really tried hard, but I don't really care, I am out of the closet so to speak. HOWEVER, when my therapist asked for the name of the site when I mentioned I was using one, I would not tell him, or my pdoc. They promised not to try to find it, and I trust that, I have been with both a long time, and we trust each others promises.

My friends and family all know I am Bipolar, and anyone else I really don't care that much about.

[Capriciousness]

Hugs everyone!

I'm feeling better. I just get all weird about stuff.

I have no idea why that might be.... Ha

I wasn't thinking of predators. I was thinking mostly of employers, co-workers, and friends and family. Psychiatrists & therapists could also find us, but I'll give most of them the benefit of the doubt that their professional ethics would keep them from doing that.

[~Christina]

If you ever wanna talk you can PM me anytime if you don't want to post something on the forum for everyone to read

[Bidad]

I didn't know if I would ever write, but this thread motivated me. I do not have bipolar. My son does and he entered a manic episode about a month ago. We have been there before. I found this forum while I was searching for information to try to get at least a little understanding of what he was going through. This forum has been a tremendous help to me.

Threads discussing the "inside story" of mania helped me. Threads on how challenging and scary are depression states helped me. He has been very good at hiding or masking the downside, and I feel like I somehow let him down. Maybe he didn't feel safe coming to me or his mother. I don't know. I showed him the blog post from the thread "I really want you guys to read this!..." and he nodded and said that's it. I showed his mother the post and she cried.

There are many other examples. So many thoughtful, insightful, touching, and compelling posts; and all of them genuine and honest, sometimes brutally so. I just wanted to say thank you to all of you. So, thank you.

[Reveille68]

Great post bidad! Good luck with your journey. I'm here with you.

Originally Posted by Capriciousness

...It was just rather a shock to see a list of posts of the Internet search. Very exposing feeling. And that is something I have a huge personal issue with.
I'm not on things like Facebook etc. I hate that stuff. I know lots of people now bare their souls and a lot else all over the Internet but I do not...

This is highly relatable. I Googled something one time and saw one of my posts among the first handful of hits. Kind of freaked me out. Other than that, I get wiggy every so often, but not a ton. Your thread got me to thinking how utterly remote a chance of being recognized would be.

Ugh on FB and all that too. Sooo not me. I've got major privacy issues too. (And am even (personally) "un-googlable"(!) Didn't go to the zillionth hit, but, yeah.)

When it comes to the forums, I'm glad people can open up, it's very helpful to know we're not alone in the struggles we have, especially in the aspects that are further removed from a "normal's" experience, because most of us are very isolated on that IRL. Living with this is hard enough as it is, and isolation only compounds it.

So yes, even if I was more 'out there', I think the payoff is far greater than the risk. :-)

[Crazy Hitch]

Glad you're feeling better Capri

[Capriciousness]

Originally Posted by Hooligan

Glad you're feeling better Capri

What? No fun gif?

where is my gif man?

[Capriciousness]

Originally Posted by Bidad

I didn't know if I would ever write, but this thread motivated me. I do not have bipolar. My son does and he entered a manic episode about a month ago. We have been there before. I found this forum while I was searching for information to try to get at least a little understanding of what he was going through. This forum has been a tremendous help to me.

Threads discussing the "inside story" of mania helped me. Threads on how challenging and scary are depression states helped me. He has been very good at hiding or masking the downside, and I feel like I somehow let him down. Maybe he didn't feel safe coming to me or his mother. I don't know. I showed him the blog post from the thread "I really want you guys to read this!..." and he nodded and said that's it. I showed his mother the post and she cried.

There are many other examples. So many thoughtful, insightful, touching, and compelling posts; and all of them genuine and honest, sometimes brutally so. I just wanted to say thank you to all of you. So, thank you.

I don't have words...nothing else I can say ... wow. thank you. i hope your family finds some peace

Just debating this very issue. Was/am considering moving from a house to apartment. Found what seemed a perfect place. As I was showing a friend the layout on their website, we scrolled to the very end & found a section entitled Tracking Policy. It says by using their provided wifi, I acknowledge that they may view by emails & postings to social media..As well as acknowledging that they may block access to sites & ability to store content that is illegal or offensive in their view. As i railed against this invasion of privacy, I was told over & over that this is common practice. However it is usually buried in all the legalize & goes unnoticed. It is also becoming a common HR practice. And a common workplace practice especially if using a device at work. Privacy is indeed an illusion. My mother use to say, if u don't want the world to read it, don't write it down.

[Lonlin3zz]

Originally Posted by Capriciousness

It's just weird to me that somebody I know irl could like read all this

I'm sure as hell they won't know your identity, don't you?

You are definitely safe.

[Capriciousness]

Originally Posted by cavaliers

Just debating this very issue. Was/am considering moving from a house to apartment. Found what seemed a perfect place. As I was showing a friend the layout on their website, we scrolled to the very end & found a section entitled Tracking Policy. It says by using their provided wifi, I acknowledge that they may view by emails & postings to social media..As well as acknowledging that they may block access to sites & ability to store content that is illegal or offensive in their view. As i railed against this invasion of privacy, I was told over & over that this is common practice. However it is usually buried in all the legalize & goes unnoticed. It is also becoming a common HR practice. And a common workplace practice especially if using a device at work. Privacy is indeed an illusion. My mother use to say, if u don't want the world to read it, don't write it down.

yep. i think that is true. sucks.

on the other hand

if everybody knows everything about us anyway then lets just let it roll....

game on

and besides Copperstar took one for the team by telling her Craigslist sex story

HA

everyone will just be distracted by that. hehehe

Thanks CopperStar!

seriously i was driving along and thought of that and laughed.

[Shadesofdark]

Originally Posted by cavaliers

It is also becoming a common HR practice. And a common workplace practice especially if using a device at work. Privacy is indeed an illusion. My mother use to say, if u don't want the world to read it, don't write it down.

For an apartment to do this is indeed an invasion of privacy. On the other hand, Employers feel that if you are at work, where they pay you to work, it is their right to know what their employees are doing on the clock. What I am saying is if you are getting paid to make widgets, you should not be spending time on facebook, or even PC.

As far as the apartment goes, they don't pay you, you pay them. And mom was right, especially if you are talking about the internet, if you don't want anyone to see it, don't write it down.

Good thing you read the fine print.

[CopperStar]

Originally Posted by cavaliers

Just debating this very issue. Was/am considering moving from a house to apartment. Found what seemed a perfect place. As I was showing a friend the layout on their website, we scrolled to the very end & found a section entitled Tracking Policy. It says by using their provided wifi, I acknowledge that they may view by emails & postings to social media..As well as acknowledging that they may block access to sites & ability to store content that is illegal or offensive in their view. As i railed against this invasion of privacy, I was told over & over that this is common practice. However it is usually buried in all the legalize & goes unnoticed. It is also becoming a common HR practice. And a common workplace practice especially if using a device at work. Privacy is indeed an illusion. My mother use to say, if u don't want the world to read it, don't write it down.

Which really leaves everyone with two choices, IMO:

1. Start censoring yourself and keep your head down and your mouth shut.
2. Keep speaking your truth no matter how many times tyrannical types try to stop you or intimidate you into stopping.

[Shadesofdark]

I'm sorry, when I said if you don't want anyone to see it don't post it I did not mean here since we post under false names. Sorry.

I think of my bipolar posts on Facebook as a way for my friends to learn about how my mind works and a way to educate people about bipolar and to see who my real friends are. Those who judge me harshly aren't my friends.

Bipolar is part of me. There is nothing I can do to change that.

[BeyondtheRainbow]

Facebook taught me a lot about who my friends are. I had the typical account with a lot of people I haven't seen since high school and I kept quiet about the bipolar on there although some people knew. That turned into 2 people being very nasty to me after I caught them making fun of me and I left the account and went to another that is some former co-workers, my family and extended family, a few old friends and that's it. I'm open about bipolar although not usually about what specifically is going on at any given time, just more I'll post about public policy and how it affects me or the like sometimes. I like it much better this way. I wish I hadn't learned the hard way.

[loophole]

Originally Posted by CopperStar

Normally I am extremely introverted and rather shy when it comes to romance type things. However one time while winding up into an episode, I actually went on Craigslist

Hahahaha not trying to laugh to hard at the story but I seen this picture at the end and about spit up my cinnamon toast crunch . Lol for real


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