[HALLIEBETH87]

I knew it was too good to be true. I finally found a good pdoc who takes me feelings into account when he makes decisions about my meds and how I feel about taking them. Whats more-I finally found an amazing t who I recently finally trust him to talk about anything. Ive only seen him since March and I knew it was too good to be true.

He told me yesterday hes leaving the clinic for private practice. I didn't really react in his office when he asked me how I felt about it. I said I understood and he needs to do whats right for him but Id miss him. Then he asked if there was something I wasn't telling him. Im sad. I had a feeling inside he would be leaving. Hes the best one Ive ever seen and we had a real connection and hes really helped me.

Im happy for him but selfishly sad. I hate change and starting over. He said he wants me to start seeing jenn (one of the dbt group facilitators.) Apparently she knows a lot about me from him and he thinks it would be best for me.

I guess.

I cried in the car. I hate change.

[thecrazylife]

I'm really sorry. Change sucks, it is something that I really hate as well. But keep hope that you will find another great T sometime soon.

[boogiesmash]

Hang in there Halli, maybe Jenn will be awesome as well

I'm sorry you are going through this. Hopefully Jenn will be awesome too. I'm wishing you the best of luck. I need to find a T as well. ((( hugs)))

[HALLIEBETH87]

Don't get me wrong...Jenn is super nice and I like her. Its just I don't want to change. I just got to where I trust Matt.

changes... one thing, then another... no permanence other than change... i suppose...... seed, bud, flower, seeds and nourishment...

im sorry fro your loss... i've had it happen to me a few times and it sucks... one moment, this person knows you best, another you're set up with a total newbie... uncertainties...... this person does not know me... and yet, he turned out to be a great help in the end oddly enough...... but being thrown in the dark rarely feels comfortable... unknown... not knowing... no security... no understanding... well, when i was alone, at least... it helped to have people be there...

i completely agree... ive met some well-meaning super nice people, and yet the fact that ... oh here we go again... is enough to leave someone unsettled...... having felt like you had some stability and now its gone... BUT!

have faith in your initial doc... chances are he knows this person qualifies for you to feel this connection again eventually...

[HALLIEBETH87]

I don't think it would be so bad HAD this not happened last year too. That t moved to Tijuana for her husbands new job and then I got switched 2 more times within the agency before giving up there (couldn't afford $20 each session) and moving to this clinic.

Im trying to be ok with it. At least I know Jenn. Matt told me that really the only thing she doesn't much about me is my childhood horrors. I didn't realize they were in communication about me at all.

[~Christina]

Well you know I am upset about Matt leaving... I'm glad you got to see him if only for this relatively short amount of time, he has shown you that there are great T's out there.

We learn so much much in life thru good things happening and not so good. You now know what a good T can do and how he/she can be helpful.. You have learned that seeing a T that's just putting in the hours for a paycheck just isn't acceptable, You deserve more, better.

Matt helped you a lot in this short amount of time. You mattered to him and he had no problem showing you that.

I hope Jenn is going to be helpful, But search for a T that is going to help you learn about your particular Bipolar.. like Matt was showing you.

You got this

[Crazy Hitch]

Ahhhhhh I'm so sorry to hear this Hallie ....

I don't like change either