Facebook and other social media

I don't go on it thinking i am a failure. It just is my critical inner voice, low self-esteem.

I am fine with Fbook when hypomanic and stable. When I am manic, I argue too much and am reactive. When I am depressed, I feel like ****,

I signed up for Facebook in 2006 during my more hardcore self-medicating phase of life so I could piece together my nights. All my friends were taking pictures and posting them on FB and I had to sign up to see them. So I did. I maintain a FB because now all my friends have moved on to other things and FB is one of the only ways I have to maintain contact with them. I also have a twitter account because, well, just to spout off all the random crap in my head I guess. Twitter is really just for Shts and giggles though.

I am.

Facebook: I deleted everyone I thought would get annoyed when I go on some mania rant - I keep my stuff on public so anyone who loves me can check up and see how I am doing. I am out with my mental illness. I do think there have been times when my husband logged into my account after me and deleted some of my crazier stuff. I appreciate if/that he did this - but I also want him of all people to love me as I am and shove my crazy in the face of anybody who doesn't like it.

Youtube/Twitter/Newspapers or other online opinion media: These accounts are not connected to my fb account, and I go on their when I get my political mania rants. I occasionally get paranoid that the FBI are tapping me because of my aggressive stance against (for example) Congress last year when they shut down. Lol, but hopefully they will leave me alone and let me live out a long and happy life knowing I am harmless.

Overall: My illness can clearly be seen at times with my posts or how much time I spend on it if I have mania and get into an obsession on some subject. If I stop being involved in social media because of my illness, I will end up back where I was - agoraphobic. I have to continue stumbling through learning how to be me openly and without apology. At this point (on ss and never expecting to be well enough to rejoin the world) what else is there for me?

It is very telling when it comes to charting mania/depression and mental health. The way I post is obvious. ^

I use FB to promote the family biz, and a personal page to present myself as a representative of that biz. We've gotten work from the page, which is serious biz.

Facebook was very bad for me in the past. I had delusions I was being plotted against. People were networking to make me kill myself. It was horrible. Also, when manic, (Especially drinking while manic) I made some terrible posts, that I wish I could erase.

I was told by mental health professionals that facebook is not good for many people with mental health disorders. They told the entire group of us to get off facebook as soon as possible. This is a bit generalized, but I'd bet you that many mentally ill people have challenges with facebook that non mentally ill people do not.

I just started using facebook again. I only have a couple people on there, and most know about my illness. I like the groups that facebook offers, and it's good for me to socialize, as I'm pretty socially isolated right now. I'm hoping I can do well with facebook this time around.

I have friends who tell me I overshare. Sometimes I do and sometimes I don't care if I do. Depends on my mood.

I have too many random friends keeping me from over sharing too much but sometimes I let things slip or post about mental illness or bipolar but I'm okay with that because the people who know me well know I have bipolar disorder and those that don't most likely could use some educating about mental illness.

But sometimes when I'm depressed I say some dark things and I do regret that.

This is actually the only online website I participate in because of my paranoia. I have no social accounts or anything else. There are many other safety precautions I take as well.

Not on FB (or any other). I was briefly on it years ago after a couple people couldn't be bothered to email anymore, saying FB or nothing(!)) Gave it a number of months, but didn't like it and left. Lot of the same reasons others gave. #1, lack of real conversation. Privacy issues with the company. Also, I simply had nothing to say in that format. Found it boring.

At first I did creep around trying to find people from way back. But... 2 best friends from h.s. -- one wasn't on, and the other one never found. Really common name didn't help. I'd always worried about him because after losing touch, I'd heard he struggled with deep depressions. Nearly all my friends were guys, and figured their SOs might not appreciate my contacting them, lol. One of which I really struggled over contacting or not, as I'd later learned he has BP. But I never contacted any of them. We were all on the intellectual/success trajectory, but I'd crashed and burned early with undx'd BP, and didn't want to have to explain anything. Subsequent years, moved a lot, everyone at aquaintence level. Nothing to keep in touch over.

I had to get off of fb because I felt like it mesed with my moods because of all the drama associated with it. So I deactivated the account years ago. But I am on Twitter since I don't have as many friends associated with that account. And I did join IG recently and so far so good, but we'll see.

For me it depends on how I feel. I do find I will pop on and check it a few times a day but lately because I feel so down I find I go on there and feel indifferent or more down and I close it right away.

What I hate in Facebook are all of the news things about the environment, tortured and abused animals and stories of horrible injustice. I get so upset when I see them and it makes me hate humanity as a whole (and that is not me)

I treat it as a public place because it is. I live very far from most of my family so it's a good way to keep in touch with them and let them see what's going on in my life. I also do photography (or did) and used it to share my pictures with friends and family.

I'm not sure if this is a coincidence or a honeymoon phase or whatever but since I joined this forum I've been spending next to no time on fb and most of my time here :-)

I used to be literally 24/7 on facebook when my laptop was too **** to run any game, **** posting, attention whoring and talk all day.

Then, you know what, when I look back, I realized I wasted my time in vain refreshing the home button to see news feed.

I hate facebook, not totally but, yeah to a major extent due to reasons:

> Drama (Politician-critics wanna-be, the smart aleck)
> Politicians-wannabe who thinks their one-sided opinion means a big deal.
> Shitposters (Gore videos, disturbing videos and stuff like this)
> People who brings a lot of their relationship photos into social media
> The blue-ticks on several facebook pages aren't even genuine.
> Comedian-wannabe pages that post loads of **** videos that aren't even remotely funny.
> First-Person-Shooter players that make their own fan-page, like they are some kind of star or something.
> People who creates fanpage, just to shoot down at people who criticize them.
> People who shares scat porn materials on a public social media like this.
> People who attracts a large crowd to flame a person over a minor tussle.

I am ranting, and I feel facebook turned to **** because of these people around. Unfollow button works, but it just leaves a permanent impression.

But still, facebook allows me to contact old friends, keep in touch with my favorite music band, pages that updates me regularly with memes of my favourite game and plus, a handful of pages that I like to go to. Facebook account allows me to sign in onto different websites using just 1 account, such as Spotify. Which is why I haven't deactivated my facebook yet.


Basically, the only good things about facebook is the paragraph above me. Use it for the good things, not use it to spread cancer.

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