[suzco]

Last year I was diagnosed with BiPolar after being hospitalized for suicidal thoughts I was put on epival and kept on effaxor..........so far everything was going great ........I felt good again, back to my old self, changed career paths, found a new less stressful job as a teacher`s aid. I love my job, my children, my husband but all of a sudden lately I started noticing the cycles, yesterday I crashed started feeling like there was no way out .......not sure why i`m so depressed really............started cutting myself again.........getting suicide thoughts .........my husband doesn`t want to hear it or face it again.................gets upset when I talk about it...............my best friend is busy with her new grandson.................I feel sooooo alone, so scared..........I don`t think I can go through it all again after going through it already!!

I've been where you are (recently, too) with everything except the cutting. Please call your doc ASAP & tell him/her you must be seen right away. Sometimes with bipolar you can still have an episode & needs your meds adjusted. Let us know how you are doing. It is important that you call your doc RIGHT AWAY--PLEASE.--Suzy

[Direction]

I agree with Suzy...including being where you are - including the cutting...

I'm sorry your husband isn't supporting you in a way you would like. It will take a lot for him to understand and not deny what he probably already knows he sees.

Definately call your doc today...

i agree, please get help for yourself keep safe, you must talk to someone about this please, i am concerned for you. please pm me anytime if you need to talk. i felt the same way as you apart from the si. i am coming through it now and you too will heal and feel better as long as you seek help.

take care, jinnyann xoxoxoxo

[bizi]

Yes you can do this again with help.
talk further with your hubby and your pdoc.
you can do this...you can do this...
we are here to try to help if we can.
bizi

[TrinaTrina]

Yeah, hang on and call your doc. This isn't the kind of thing that can wait. You'll get better again; sometimes a med problem happens or our brains just decide to get out of whack for a while, and then we need a change.

I'm so, so sorry that you're going through this, and without the support you should be able to expect. But, however your husband reacts, you need to do what's best for yourself.

Take care & let us know how you're doing.

I know how you feel,alone,scared,hopeless,wanting it to end without losing what you've got(meaning your family,job)!And I understand the cutting to! I'm BiPolar,and a recovering cutter,trying hard to hold on!With no one to help me,living alone,with my puppy,no support from family,or friends.Barely surviving myself,with the same question,is it worth it,do I want to keep going through this? I hold on to my puppy!and tell myself that he didn't do anything to deserve being abandoned!That's what's keeping me going,my little Nico! It's scary,it's hard,and miserable,I know,but out of everything in your life,there's got to be at least one thing,or person you can hold onto,that gives you a reason to keep going,and make that call to your Doctor for help,and not give up! If you need anything,I'm only a PM away.

*Justice*