[CrazyLo]

When I'm hypomanic, I am so productive! I accomplish so many things. But when it turns into full-blown mania, it's as if I get so excited about so many things, which feels like anxiety, which causes me to not do anything of the things I'm so excited about. Instead I just pace around a lot and play with fidget toys. Can anyone relate?

[cashart10]

Yes! This morning I found myself pacing while brushing my friggin teeth. It tends to turn from productivity to a lot of insane dancing around, pacing, acting like a damn moron...anything but productive.

[CrazyLo]

Originally Posted by cashart10

Yes! This morning I found myself pacing while brushing my friggin teeth. It tends to turn from productivity to a lot of insane dancing around, pacing, acting like a damn moron...anything but productive.

LOL...I will do a lot dancing too. And singing. Or I'll go for walks at 2 AM because I get so restless...um....yeah. haha

[wiretwister]

Originally Posted by cashart10

a lot of insane dancing around, pacing, acting like a damn moron...anything but productive.

I do that But I never linked it to anything , just saw it as how I was , ...

[raspberrytorte]

My manias suck and involve a lot of paranoia and anxiety. No happy feelings. I get nothing done. I get stuff done when I'm stable.

[CrazyLo]

Originally Posted by raspberrytorte

My manias suck and involve a lot of paranoia and anxiety. No happy feelings. I get nothing done. I get stuff done when I'm stable.

I'm pretty anxious when I'm manic. Extremely hypersensitive too. But when I'm hypomanic, I am super productive. Just not when it escalates to mania.

[CrazyLo]

Originally Posted by raspberrytorte

My manias suck and involve a lot of paranoia and anxiety. No happy feelings. I get nothing done. I get stuff done when I'm stable.

I'm pretty anxious when I'm manic. Extremely hypersensitive too. But when I'm hypomanic, I am super productive. Just not when it escalates to mania.

Also, I never get stuff done when I'm stable. But I'm not sure what my "stable" is...I'm always either manic or depressed or psychotic...hopefully I can be like you someday.

[raspberrytorte]

I can get a lot done when I'm depressed or experiencing some sort of psychosis. I'm just thinking about my last actual episode when I was whatever I was (the doctor at the hospital said I was mixed and had a psychotic break...but I wasn't depressed during it. Just really paranoid, anxious, and too goal oriented on one thing to get anything relevant done).

However, I did do a lot of dancing. Lol!

In all honesty, I don't know. I have trouble identifying hypomania. I wrote one of my novels in a very short period of time, but I'm not sure if it was just a writing high or a hypomanic episode. I did crash for a long time afterwards.

[CrazyLo]

Originally Posted by raspberrytorte

I can get a lot done when I'm depressed or experiencing some sort of psychosis. I'm just thinking about my last actual episode when I was whatever I was (the doctor at the hospital said I was mixed and had a psychotic break...but I wasn't depressed during it. Just really paranoid, anxious, and too goal oriented on one thing to get anything relevant done).

However, I did do a lot of dancing. Lol!

In all honesty, I don't know. I have trouble identifying hypomania. I wrote one of my novels in a very short period of time, but I'm not sure if it was just a writing high or a hypomanic episode. I did crash for a long time afterwards.

I'm getting better at identifying at hypomania, but it's still difficult because I don't know what my "normal" is. Mostly, when I'm depressed I don't get anything done...when I have bad anxiety I don't get anything done, either. So what I'm hypomanic I don't have much anxiety and I don't feel depressed, and I notice that I have a lot of motivation to accomplish things and multi-task and suddenly I'm very excited and positive about life and super social. Once I'm manic, as long as it's not a mixed episode (where I'm just really angry all the time), then I get too excited about too many things and it feels like anxiety so I get overwhelmed and don't do anything but fidget, pace, dance around, etc...

So I feel like I'm hypomanic right now because I'm experiencing all of the hypomanic symptoms above. I'm not sure if it's my "normal" because I was extremely depressed for a few days until this past Monday. And then the depression magically disappeared! It is strange and raises suspicion. Plus, a lot of times when I'm about to become psychotic, I listen to a lot of music and get obsessed about the music because my psychosis is always so music-based...and other times when I'm about to become psychotic I will repeat words and phrases in my head over and over again and rehearse conversations until it "sounds right" and no, I don't have OCD. But eventually all the word and phrase repetition turns into annoying rhythms and songs. So anyway, I am currently experiencing both early symptoms.

Anyway, I kind of went off topic. Sorry!

I don't know if it's brain damage or what, but I feel like I'm spinning in circles doing nothing, never finishing and having a hard time starting something new. I hate it. I'd rather be depressed giving me a reason for doing nothing. Weird, isn't it?

[CrazyLo]

Originally Posted by AlwaysChanging2

I don't know if it's brain damage or what, but I feel like I'm spinning in circles doing nothing, never finishing and having a hard time starting something new. I hate it. I'd rather be depressed giving me a reason for doing nothing. Weird, isn't it?

I kind of understand. I'm much better at coping with depression than with mania. Don't usually need to go inpatient as often when I'm depressed, either.