Bipolar daily check-in thread # 10

Oct 21, 2015, 03:14 AM

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Originally Posted by Marsupilami

Honestly, I would check myself into hospital in a heartbeat if I thought they would actually do anything. I only got out just over a week ago and the meds they gave me which they said would start working straight away have done nothing. Ready to give up and I don't think anyone would give a stuff if I did

We would very much give a stuff if you were to give up, and do what you'e thinking of doing, hun. Don't hurt yourself. Don't....

LadyShadow · Oct 21, 2015, 03:32 AM

I feel a bit lost, indecisive, I want to write something, share something, but I don't know where to begin. My spirit is weakened, yearning for something more tonight.

LadyShadow · Oct 21, 2015, 03:33 AM

I feel a bit lost, indecisive, I want to write something, share something, but I don't know where to begin. My spirit is weakened, yearning for something more tonight.

LettinG0 · Oct 21, 2015, 07:40 AM

My sweet, sweet Momma passed away 5 years ago today. I'm very sad.

Pikku Myy · Oct 21, 2015, 08:31 AM

Having a better week here

much more relaxed and calm.

xxblackrosesxx · Oct 21, 2015, 11:57 AM

Today I got out of bed at 12:30pm. All I've done is put my clothes away. I feel so down and unaccomplished
Plus my care coordinator didn't turn up. Was waiting all afternoon.

dislexia1214 · Oct 21, 2015, 01:33 PM

I am seriously feeling today like I am in a box and I look around me and it feels like everyone else is on the outside. Does anyone else ever feel like that? I ask myself how do they do it, just keep going the way they do, and why can't I? Not as blind today of my surroundings as I was yesterday, but I don't know if this is much better! Still feel like when I get like this and stop doing the things I'm supposed to for work and everything that I get soooooo behind. It's like it's all going to come crashing down. Ugh.

dislexia1214 · Oct 21, 2015, 01:40 PM

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Originally Posted by Marsupilami

Honestly, I would check myself into hospital in a heartbeat if I thought they would actually do anything. I only got out just over a week ago and the meds they gave me which they said would start working straight away have done nothing. Ready to give up and I don't think anyone would give a stuff if I did

I'm just thinking that I don't even know you but I care if you give up, so just imagine how much more the people that know you would care. I'm sure you wouldn't wish your struggles on anyone you love...don't give up. The fight feels endless sometimes but it's always worth continuing the fight!

dislexia1214 · Oct 21, 2015, 01:44 PM

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Originally Posted by BlackSheep79

I'm lazy today. No motivation at all. Still having dizzy spells. I see my pdoc next Tuesday, so I really don't want to bother him for something stupid. Have to go into work tomorrow on my day off to go to a meeting and get some stuff done. No motivation so it's not going to be good, trying to think positive. Almost time for bed.

Just out of curiosity, what's your opinion on the Geodon? My doc prescribed it to me but the side effects freaked me out so I never took it.

Moreta · Oct 21, 2015, 02:35 PM

My husband is having a pissy day and it's rubbing off on me. I wish he would find a job soon. We really need the money and it would help him not be so pissed off.

scatterbrained04 · Oct 21, 2015, 02:37 PM

Feeling kind of guilty this afternoon. I should be doing work right now, but I feel like I need to indulge in things I find comforting.

I got pretty upset at work this morning, so maybe that is why. I'm feeling pretty overwhelmed.

gayleggg · Oct 21, 2015, 02:47 PM

My depression is kicking in big time as I have been going over the budget. It has me so depressed that I'm slipping into bad thoughts. I don't see a way out. The walls are closing in.

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BlackSheep79 · Oct 21, 2015, 05:28 PM

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Originally Posted by dislexia1214

Just out of curiosity, what's your opinion on the Geodon? My doc prescribed it to me but the side effects freaked me out so I never took it.

I'm allergic to four APs, so it's good in that sense for me. I have not experienced any side effects. I have trouble with insomnia and this added to my mix has seemed to work for the most part. It's so hard to try new meds because of those possible side effects. I look at it like this, it's only possible. I have to be on meds otherwise I will lose everything. I had a horrible reaction to Latuda that messed up my life for a long time and I've still been willing and able to try new meds for the reasons stated above. Now they have that new test you can take that will tell you what needs are the best and worst for your body. If the Geodon does not work I'm going to see if my insurance will cover it. Hope this helped.

LettinG0 · Oct 22, 2015, 09:55 AM

Here. Present and accounted for. Checking in,

BastetsMuse · Oct 22, 2015, 10:14 AM

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Originally Posted by Innerzone

How's everyone doing today?

After almost two weeks of nasty with prednisone dosage, I finally feel good today. I went out to breakfast with my husband, which means I got up early, showered, put on makeup and dressed to be seen for the first time in a week.

Hope it continues!

Nevvy · Oct 22, 2015, 10:54 AM

Visited my mother after 4 years (she's back in the hospital again, the day I arrived she went in).

Spent too much time there and I'm a mess now. Managed to arrange better care for her though, so that's something, but at the expense of my own health.

I was at that shooting that made national news too (zombiecon) and now my social anxiety is out of wack again.

I'm checking in though!

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dislexia1214 · Oct 22, 2015, 01:32 PM

Checking in. Again today I missed work. I was planning on going and after I got my kids to school I sat down on the couch and fell asleep until noon. This fatigue crap sucks!I'm really wishing there was a way to get this depression off my back and I'd rather be in a manic state. Too much to be done for this to be happening right now. I wish I was normal sometimes!!!!!

BlackSheep79 · Oct 22, 2015, 02:24 PM

I was crazy high in the morning and now down. I can't stand these almost fainting spells at night. I had to cancel my plans last night because of it. I want to call my pdoc but I see him on Tuesday. I don't know what to do, it's affecting my work life.

BlackSheep79 · Oct 22, 2015, 02:53 PM

Gave in, I called my pdoc. I can't miss more work, I hate this kind of stuff. It could be worse, and at least I'm sleeping.

gayleggg · Oct 22, 2015, 05:40 PM

Really depressed and anxious today. And I don't see any relief in site. It's so discouraging.

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hopeless2015 · Oct 22, 2015, 05:50 PM

Keeping it simple...

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BlackSheep79 · Oct 23, 2015, 09:45 PM

Long twelve hour shift. These drugs are making me a zombie in the morning which is not helping with work. It takes about 2 1/2 hours and caffeine to get out of it. I can sleep though, that's what's great. Oh what to do, I have no clue.

UpDownMiddleGround · Oct 24, 2015, 12:26 AM

I am awake. But i'm not dragging all day. Hopefully tomorrow will be a good day too.

Oct 24, 2015, 02:16 AM

I have been doing well. Been feeling pretty close to normal lately. Not up ,not down. Fairly stable.

Oct 24, 2015, 03:20 AM

I thought i had friends, i thought i mattered in their life. I was so so so wrong. And asking for support has been the dumbest thing i have done. Why didnt i learn the first time? Or the second? Or third? Nobody wants a fat crazy at their wedding, baby shower or show.

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