Home Menu

Menu


Reply
Thread Tools Display Modes
  #1  
Old Sep 01, 2015, 03:22 PM
Blackbeltwolfmother's Avatar
Blackbeltwolfmother Blackbeltwolfmother is offline
Junior Member
 
Member Since: Aug 2015
Location: Canada
Posts: 22
Hi all,

Just wondering if anyone else has had this happen. I recently found out about something I did a while ago that was not nice at all, to my husband. I literally cannot remember doing it, which is disturbing!!
I have been struggling a lot lately with anxiety and low moods, but not hyponanias I don't think. Though I spose maybe a slight one that was aggressive?? I'm on lamictal for that so im usually pretty stable. I have been trying to find an add on med to help with the anxiety but the two I've tried have been horrible with side effects so I tapered off both. I'm not sure if this happened when I tried the first one (seroquel) or before that.

Anyone??
__________________
Bipolar 2, GAD. Mom. Dog person.

advertisement
  #2  
Old Sep 01, 2015, 03:55 PM
HALLIEBETH87's Avatar
HALLIEBETH87 HALLIEBETH87 is offline
Legendary
 
Member Since: Oct 2004
Location: usa
Posts: 11,934
I mostly just do things in mania that I don't remember doing or how I acted toward someone.
__________________
schizoaffective bipolar type
PTSD
generalized anxiety d/o

haldol, prazosin, risperdal and prn klonopin and helpful cogentin
  #3  
Old Sep 01, 2015, 04:30 PM
Anonymous37904
Guest
 
Posts: n/a
Yes during mania and psychosis.
  #4  
Old Sep 01, 2015, 05:16 PM
wiretwister's Avatar
wiretwister wiretwister is offline
we are one
 
Member Since: Jul 2013
Location: Ky , USA
Posts: 3,015
A lot, it seems to coming back to me a piece at a time ....
__________________
( PRAY FOR SOUTH KOREA )



https://www.pinterest.com/lovesoonkyu/
  #5  
Old Sep 01, 2015, 05:16 PM
mom2trips+1 mom2trips+1 is offline
Member
 
Member Since: May 2015
Location: USA
Posts: 103
Quote:
Originally Posted by Blackbeltwolfmother View Post
Hi all,

Just wondering if anyone else has had this happen. I recently found out about something I did a while ago that was not nice at all, to my husband. I literally cannot remember doing it, which is disturbing!!
I have been struggling a lot lately with anxiety and low moods, but not hyponanias I don't think. Though I spose maybe a slight one that was aggressive?? I'm on lamictal for that so im usually pretty stable. I have been trying to find an add on med to help with the anxiety but the two I've tried have been horrible with side effects so I tapered off both. I'm not sure if this happened when I tried the first one (seroquel) or before that.

Anyone??
Yes, I have. When I am very enraged/angry I will say things and do things I don't remember. My therapist thinks it is a form of dissociation due to PTSD. It has only happened a handful of times and happened only with my husband.
  #6  
Old Sep 01, 2015, 06:16 PM
loophole's Avatar
loophole loophole is offline
Veteran Member
 
Member Since: Jul 2014
Posts: 659
Done some pretty embarrassing things and completely have 0 memory of some of them

Sent from my iPhone 6 plus using Tapatalk
__________________
Then it comes to be that the soothing light at the end of your tunnel... it's just a freight train coming your way.
  #7  
Old Sep 01, 2015, 06:55 PM
WibblyWobbly's Avatar
WibblyWobbly WibblyWobbly is offline
Member
 
Member Since: Jul 2015
Location: USA
Posts: 470
Yes, I have done it in manic episodes. During my last one I was IP and I called my family and threatened them every day for 3 weeks but I have no memory of it. I also dissociate during arguments so I may or may not remember what was said.
  #8  
Old Sep 01, 2015, 07:49 PM
stuckinreverie's Avatar
stuckinreverie stuckinreverie is offline
Junior Member
 
Member Since: Jul 2015
Location: florida
Posts: 23
Half the time, I don't even think my mouth has a censor. I just talk and BOOM wish I hadn't said that. I don't know if it has anything to do with stress, mania, or whatever... I just end up saying a lot of things that I wish I hadn't said aloud. I try to be more conscious of my speech as a result, but I'm not good at it yet.
__________________
Do not give up on life because there are lots of difficulties.

Difficulties in life are not meant to destroy you; but to help you realize your hidden potential.

___________________________________
BiPoLaR II
______________


Abilify 15 mg
Effexor 150 mg
  #9  
Old Sep 01, 2015, 09:09 PM
Blackbeltwolfmother's Avatar
Blackbeltwolfmother Blackbeltwolfmother is offline
Junior Member
 
Member Since: Aug 2015
Location: Canada
Posts: 22
Nice to know I'm not alone in this at least! I don't think I was in a mania just been really stressed for an extended period of time.
I do also have those moments when stuff that's derogatory or scathing just slups out fast, before I even realize what I'm saying. :/
I almost feel like I have tourettes sometimes!

So is this controlling angry outbursts a sign meds r not enough, or simply another thing I need to practice cbt on?
__________________
Bipolar 2, GAD. Mom. Dog person.
  #10  
Old Sep 02, 2015, 12:14 AM
BipolaRNurse's Avatar
BipolaRNurse BipolaRNurse is offline
Neurodivergent
 
Member Since: Mar 2012
Location: Western US
Posts: 4,831
I'm another BP who blanks out during manic episodes and can't remember some of the things I said or did. Even when I'm confronted with it and have to trust that I really did say or do those things (and my paranoia makes me wonder if I'm being gaslighted). For me the only way to prevent that is to not get manic in the first place.
__________________
DX: Bipolar 1
Anxiety
Tardive dyskinesia
Mild cognitive impairment

RX:
Celexa 20 mg
Gabapentin 1200 mg
Geodon 40 mg AM, 60 mg PM
Klonopin 0.5 mg PRN
Lamictal 500 mg
Levothyroxine 125 mcg (rx'd for depression)
Trazodone 150 mg
Zyprexa 7.5 mg

Please come visit me @ http://bpnurse.com
  #11  
Old Sep 02, 2015, 12:06 PM
kindachaotic's Avatar
kindachaotic kindachaotic is offline
Grand Poohbah
 
Member Since: Aug 2011
Location: Southeast US
Posts: 1,834
Also say & do things I don't remember. Not mean, well sometimes snappy or unfaithful/sexual.
Conversations, trips for lab work, bills paid or unpaid.
Maybe it's the meds or bipolar or my age.
It's unnerving & embarrassing.
  #12  
Old Sep 02, 2015, 12:21 PM
Curiosity77's Avatar
Curiosity77 Curiosity77 is offline
Poohbah
 
Member Since: Feb 2014
Location: Earth
Posts: 1,083
Yup, and not just if unstable. It's just been minor things mostly, like conversations, or not remembering if I've actually done certain chores, returned phone calls at work, stuff like that. When i was on valproate i would literally remember nothing of chunks of time, like go places with a friend and have no memory when they told me about it later. But that doesn't happen now, or in a long time. Still, the memory lapses i have now freak me out, and seem more frequent.
__________________
"Does the body rule the mind, or does the mind rule the body?"

"Those who feel the breath of sadness, sit down next to me. Those feel they're touched my madness, sit down next to me. Those who find themselves ridiculous, sit down next to me."
  #13  
Old Sep 02, 2015, 03:18 PM
Anonymous200230
Guest
 
Posts: n/a
If you mean walking around in circles forgetting what you were doing, having to live off lists and notes written over hands and arms and whatever bits of paper you can find in the car then yes I have major problems in that area. Like Curiosity, there are literally months of my life that I have absolutely no idea what I did on a day to day level. Even photo's I took during those times have very little memories attached to them. I have a few mental pictures, but for the most, the last 15 years are very much blank. I have to rely on others around me to tell me what happened at various stages of my life, especially when it has to do with timing of events.

Short term, long term, I think it has everything to do with a combination of bipolar, meds and the memories that a brain try's hard to suppress.
  #14  
Old Sep 02, 2015, 03:30 PM
Wildflower4 Wildflower4 is offline
Member
 
Member Since: Aug 2015
Location: USA
Posts: 48
I definitely have large gaps I don't remember. I had some emotionally abusive relationships in the past and I sometimes think I can't remember chunks of time as a coping mechanism. It makes me really sad when my older kids say do you remember when I did this and don't know what they are talking about.

I think I forget other things when I'm manic like my attitude/things I've said that probably weren't appropriate. My husband will remind me of stuff I said and I have no recollection of it.
Reply
Views: 1064

attentionThis is an old thread. You probably should not post your reply to it, as the original poster is unlikely to see it.




All times are GMT -5. The time now is 03:13 PM.
Powered by vBulletin® — Copyright © 2000 - 2025, Jelsoft Enterprises Ltd.




 

My Support Forums

My Support Forums is the online community that was originally begun as the Psych Central Forums in 2001. It now runs as an independent self-help support group community for mental health, personality, and psychological issues and is overseen by a group of dedicated, caring volunteers from around the world.

 

Helplines and Lifelines

The material on this site is for informational purposes only, and is not a substitute for medical advice, diagnosis or treatment provided by a qualified health care provider.

Always consult your doctor or mental health professional before trying anything you read here.