College is making me go crazy and rapid cycle.

Starting college this week is making me go crazy. Last night I talked to someone about having a random hookup, got in touch with a drug dealer for LSD (which I changed my mind this morning), posted an ad on backpage as a male escort (myself), and skipped class last night. I went to class today and today has been better, but I am now depressed. My mom is very worried about me as she went through my text messages. I live at home but go to college as a nontraditional student. (As I am 22). I thought I was finally ready for college. Studying has been very hard. If I don't get through school, I'll never get a job and my parents said next week I have to move out after all that happened last night. If I drop out of college, I'll have to live on my own and struggle to survive. If I continue going, I might have to go to the psych ward. I am in a difficult situation. I don't quite know what to do. There is a place in Georgia I've wanted to go to for a long time that helps people with bipolar and schizophrenia get back on their feet. I don't know if maybe I need to go but I've been dissociating and vomiting out of stress. I can't stop popping clonazepam. I've had cluster headaches, vomiting, and diarrhea. Today it's been better, but I don't know what this weekend will bring. Advice Please!

Sorry to hear you are struggling. The zoloft might be making you rapid cycle. It made me rapid cycle. Anxiety is no fun. I hope you feel better soon. Hugs.

Sounds like you are struggling have you got any support?

Try not to catastrophise, you will get through this.

Good for you for turning down the acid. I highly highly recommend that you avoid that. Psychedelics are no good, especially for folks like us.
What's this place in Georgia?

I'm so sorry you are going through a hard time. LSD and those type of drugs are the worst thing for us. Some AD can cause rapid cycling. Do you have a pdoc that you see on a regular basis? Would your parents be supportive of you going to the place in Georgia?

Before quiting school go IP it's only for a couple of days. Go before it gets to bad.

The place in Georgia is called skyland trails and its an inpatient. I was having delusions that I would rule wall street last night.

So sorry you are in such a state right now....do you have support that can help you figure out the best plan of action? Please do your best to stay away from the drugs...I know you know that...

I have read about Skyland Trails. I think it's supposed to be really good.

I'm sorry you're struggling. College is difficult for many people, so don't feel bad. I went when I was 17 right after high school and became so depressed and failed classes so I decided not to return. I went to community college a year later, I failed again. I attempted online courses. Failed those too. I was so frustrated with myself because I was a good student when I was in high school. I eventually just gave myself a break and worked on me and tried to figure out what I wanted out of life. When I was 26 I tried again, and I finally was able to complete my degree. Sometimes things take time, and if the timing isn't right now, that's ok. I believe everyone should live life at their own pace. I remember you saying you were taking a full course load. It is still early in the semester, is it possible to drop a couple of classes so that you can only work on one or two classes? Sometimes you have to start out slow and work your way back up. If you need to IP, that's ok, your health is important and I think that is brave to admit that and recognize you need help. I hope you are able to find the help you need.

I truly hope you are able to find some stability and happiness.

Have you talked to a counselor or student advocate at the school? It's possible for people with disabilities to be given time off from school and extra time on assignments and the like. And for future reference, SSRI's + LSD or Shrooms = waste of cash. SSRIs take up all the receptors the psychedelics work so you'd hardly feel anything, especially if you;ve been on one for a while. You also run the risk of Serotonin Syndrome - especially since people on SSRIs end up taking alot more LSD than normal to achieve the effects that the SSRIs drown out.

I agree with Gina on dropping classes. A full course load can be so stressful. I dropped a course in my second semester of college because it was way too much to handle (it was an honors course and way too much work). It helped tremendously. Since you are starting a little later in life it might be better to start with one class and work your way up.

Also, if you DO need ip, it is ok to drop the semester and return later. School will always be there. You can go to school as long as you live. But you have to actually keep living.

I dropped out of my special Ed courses twice now and I'm not ashamed. I'm disappointed because I really do want to get my certification but I just can't handle it right now and there's no shame in that.

Good luck, I hope you find some relief.