Not well tonight...

I'm not sure what's wrong with me tonight. I'm feeling low and irritable today. Strong urges to self-harm are bugging me. It's been 3 months since I last did. I think I am feeling the effects of all the change. I want a tattoo, both because I love them and because it gives me a high. I went to a child's birthday party for a while today because I am friends with his mother. I felt very withdrawn and not wanting to be around people at all. I left early. I'm hoping it was just an off day. I don't want to end up in an episode. I was just in mixed in July.

Im not sure whats going on but I am afraid its not good.

I wish I knew what to say, except that we are here to support you.

We all have bad days, we're human. So I hope that is all that is bothering you. Please take care and we're here if you need us!

I'm so sorry, Halliebeth. I hope tomorrow dawns brighter for you.

Im gonna get an owl tattoo on my left foot

I want an owl tattoo also! But I don't think I can put anything on my foot, looks painful..

I'd go get the tattoo it's at least a constructive way to sh. I hope you feel better tomorrow.

I already have right foot tattoo. It does hurt but in ok with it

I'm sorry you had a rough day. I hope you're doing better today. The owl tat sounds cool and should relieve some of that urge to SI. Good luck and be kind to yourself.

I hope you're ok Hallie and you haven't hurt yourself.

I didn't. But I went to Sunday school today and someone mentioned suicide by gun then they kept talking about it and it triggered me bad. I shut down.

I'm still triggered by guns and such. It's s long story I can't post here. Well just said I'm kind of not ok right now.

Thanks

I'm a serious irritable ***** today. I keep snapping. In on way to family function and is rather be in bed alone!!!!!!!!!

I'm sorry you were triggered Hallie-- at church of all places. I hope your family function goes ok.

I'm worried I'm heading to a bad state. I'm trying not to obsess but my family function is at house where my crisis happen 2 months ago.

It's worse. My mother who never talks to or sees me just showed up

Just remember the crisis was then, this is now. Soon the function will be over and you can put it behind you. Be gentle with yourself.

Be strong girl! If you need to leave, leave! You have to take of yourself first and foremost! I'm so sorry you are going through this but you have given me good advice over the past few months that I've been on here. There were some really bad days that you made me feel better. There will be good days ahead. Just concentrate on that right now. Hugs

Did everything go ok Hallie?

I'm still here. I rode with my sister so I'm here til she wants to go. Bah I'm hiding out at my cousins house!

Thank goodness for cousins!

Yes. I just wanna go home and be alone

Thank goodness I'm home and hidden in my room. Ty for all the replies

Glad you made it home safe and sound