What do you miss about hypo?

Another (hypo) mania post..

For me the obvious, creativity, energy, wits. When I'm down, or even normal mood, I feel a bit slow, not as interesting, and I'm missing that confidence I would get while manic. It seems as if I have more friends during hypo, and it's easier to meet new people. Everything's more interesting and for some reason I even find myself more attractive and vibrant when hypo. Probably because my eyes look awake. Also I feel like there's heeling factors for mania. My IBS goes away. I tried to find out the answer to why this happens, but I couldn't find answers. My back pain goes away, and I lose weight quicker.

Last night, after playing basketball, an attractive girl watching me play gave me a huge complement, and seemed to really like me. I didn't really know what to say. I was going to ask for her name, but I didn't even bother. It's like I have to think about what I'm saying, while to contrary during hypo, everything just comes flowing out. I know this is partially due to Saphris (AP) I don't plan on staying on this forever, but for now it seems I have to because my p.a. doesn't seem to be working with me. And, I can't sleep without it..

I know being hypo all the time, isn't possible, though I wish it were.

What do you think I can do to get my confidence up and meet someone? I don't really drink and when I do go out to the bar with my friends, I usually get distant and stand in the corner depressed. I go to the coffee shop, and know some people there, but I'm not as talkative as I used to be, and usually end up leaving quickly.

Since, I've been in that hypo mind-state, I feel like it's possible to train your mind to get back there. Through meditation and whatnot.

The energy and joy

The libido boost , I feel like a failure as wife the rest of the time.

Nothing.....I'm probably in the minority.....but the havoc that I wreak in and around my world is not worth even one minute of being witty and outgoing......

I once ate an orange, and it was the tastiest orange in the universe.
No orange has ever tasted like that since, and nor will one ever

That is what I miss - sensory overload

I second that LettinGo. I am a monster of a mother when I am hypo. If I was just witty and able to get everything done on my list in one day, without the extreme irritability and jumping out of my skin...

I don't know if I'm hypo right now or not, (my pdoc isn't sure either) but I've definitely been more creative and just generally happy and able to talk to people somewhat. I've drawn like 12 portraits in the past 3 weeks and I've never drawn portraits before. It's exhilarating, but I'm lagging on my grad school studies and job shadows because I literally can't stop drawing. It's awesome, but also not...but it feels awesome.

I know what that orange taste like.

I remember eating something a while back and normally it wouldn't taste good, and I was like why is this so good? Omg this delicious

The energy. When I am baseline I tend to be low energy. That's how I've always been. I need more sleep than most people to feel rested. When I'm hypo I have boundless energy and can get a lot more done.

Everything.

Feeling happy

Currently hypo, but I will miss the energy, euphoria and generally loving myself. I won't miss continually injuring myself because I don't realise I'm pushing my body too far.

definitely the energy

everything....The depakote makes me a zombie who just sleeps and eats all the time. Although I dont drink or gamble or flip out at 3am anymore..so thats a plus

EVERYTHING! I love the energy, the positive, can do anything feeling, the speed in which I get things done, happiness, problem solving abilities (as opposed to the negative, everything is hopeless depression). It's awesome! The best part is the absence of the dark side!!

I'm new so don't mind the typing but what was the compliment she gave you?

Hypomania was always a double-edged sword for me. Of course, we all have the creative energy and the drive to get things done. But for me, my mind would overload and I'd eventually run into a brick wall. Whoever was around (usually my family) would take the brunt of the anger and frustration that accompanied the crash. I self destructed more than I can say. In the end, it wasn't worth it.

My suggestion - recalibrate! Adjust your perspective and look at it as a new path you need to take. Eat well, sleep, meditate, stay centered, keep a positive outlook, and accept the new paradigm. Feel the sunshine on your face, smell the freshly cut grass, and appreciate the small things we all really do miss when we're hypomanic. There is some good on the other side too!

IMO, we're all sort of blessed/cursed with BP - it is what it is and it isn't something we should try to fight. And the next time that pretty girl gives you a compliment, simply smile and say "thanks" and magic will start to happen.

I here ya on the baseline low energy feeling. It sucks, I look around knowing things need to be done, but I always get a big case of I don't wanna's. I also need more sleep, like 12 hours is the best for me.

Thanks for the nice perspective.

I second that! And it brings me down even more knowing that I just don't wanna do what needs to be done! I've actually tried to find a way to induce hypo, but no luck so far. I've tried b12 vitamins, listening to my favorite up-beat songs, eating healthier, nothing has worked.

As much as I like some aspects of being hypo, I also know there are bad repercussions that go along with it. Sometimes I wish I could be hypo, but then my brain reminds of why I don't.

basically, that I was rrally good at basketball, she went on forever though. ididnt know what to say, I didnt think I played so well compared to some other ballers, so she must of liked me?

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ha, I was on depakote i know that taste.

And as for gambling at 3am Ive been there. Like a speed addict. I remember leaving casino around 11pm and heading back up around 3am, I went to pick up a friend and his father was outside doing somethting, I probably looked like a crack addict. odd thing is I usually end up winning when Im manic. And ironically, it makes my mood worse making me more elevated. My p.a. knows this, 2 months ago after coming off a med, she was like, and make sure you call me, if you end up going to the casino at 3am and start drinking. that scene never works out..

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the energy! also it's just fun. I am BP II so I've only been hypomanic a few times (I just tend more towards depression) and although the repercussions often sucked, I remember feeling so young and energetic and free spirited and just ready for adventure. I wanted to go out to bars/clubs a lot and would go out with friends and just be so happy and free, ready to go wherever the night took us. we would end up in the craziest places like strip clubs or afterparties in with people we didn't even know. my best friend and I once ended up at a bachelor party in this mansion with piles of coke everywhere (which in retrospect was so stupid and unsafe, luckily they were all very nice guys and perfect gentleman all evening). I also would be overly flirtatious/amorous, open with my emotions/personal life, feel like the world was collaborating with me ie feel so special, see coincidences and meaning everywhere in the tiniest things, and often abuse drugs and alcohol, but hey I had a great time doing it I don't miss the afteraffects though, the crash and guilt and having to apologize to people.

Sex!
I'm surprised no one has mentioned it yet.