[coldwut]

So I've been told in another forum that some of my symptoms sound like bipolar disorder, and now I'm wondering if I experience hypomania.

I've had bouts of depression since I was a kid. Recently I've been put on Celexa (actually around February that I was put on it), which on the first day caused me to be more talkative and I didn't need that much sleep. Anyhow a few weeks later I had to up the dose and the first week was rough. I also took ritalin. I was very agitated and could barely get any work done. There were times where I was really happy, only to get really irritated. I didn't want to eat because I was so irritated and I felt that food was slowing me down. That lasted for about a week and it was at the time that I was on my period.

A few months later I became irritated because people were around and I ended up having delusions that lasted for almost two months. I thought my food was being poisoned, I was being spied on, this world was fake and somehow I got into another dimension, demons were after me, and that a song was talking to me.

TW: Self Harm and suicide mention

Possible trigger:

I was extremely agitated and irritated and I had violent urges. I started self harming a lot during that time, mostly because I thought I get poison out, and because I needed some way to direct my violent urges. One night I felt really bad and I ended up taking more pills than I needed to and I planned to take more. I changed my mind before I did anything too rash.

There were days where I had little to no motivation and it would be hard for me to move. Other days I felt both tired but also wound up.

Now my delusions are pretty much gone but I get the urge not to sleep. I have that same tired but wound up feeling and I want to not sleep until I crash. I mean I've always had problems sleeping, but now I feel like I got to do something or just stay up because I probably hate myself.

TW self harm and suicide mention again.

Possible trigger:

I self harmed again because I needed to do something. I didn't even feel bad. I just had to do something. I also packed that night and cleaned. I also wanted to die but in a cool way, and I got the urge to take a whole bunch of pills just because.

So, this is what has been happening. I don't know if this falls under a mood disorder or of it's something else completely. I will be talking to a pdoc by the end of next month.

Also, what's the difference between agitated depression and dysphoric (hypo)mania?

[*Laurie*]

Hi coldwut, When is your psychiatry appointment?

[DysphoricManicMom]

Definitely sounds like the celexa either put u into a manic episode or exacerbated one, which antidepressants will do to someone with bipolar

[coldwut]

Originally Posted by LauraBeth

Hi coldwut, When is your psychiatry appointment?

I think it's on the 21st of September. I'm going to call again.

In the mean time I'm going to speak to my school counselor.

Originally Posted by DysphoricManicMom

Definitely sounds like the celexa either put u into a manic episode or exacerbated one, which antidepressants will do to someone with bipolar

Wait, so can Celexa trigger an episode if I haven't had one before? At least not that I remember. Would that mean that I was bipolar before or that the medication brought it out?

[DysphoricManicMom]

The way I understand it is dysphoric mania is youre in a manic episode but it is opposite of the euphoric mania where youd feel really good, hyper, like u can take on the world, racing thoughts/flood of ideas/excessive spending, etc. Dysphoric is feeling high energy but is not a good feeling. Its accompanied by extreme irritation/agression, and the racing thoughts are all negatives. Dysphoric mania is also considered "mixed states" where you feel the ups and downs simultaneously. Now as far as agitated depression goes, it can look like dysphoric mania/mixed states but is not considered part of the bipolar spectrum I think because it does not have the manic/high energy aspect of it.

[*Laurie*]

Yes, DysphoricManicMom is spot on. I get dysphoric manias/mixed states. Agony.

I do think you should call and try for an earlier p-doc appointment. Be persistent, tell the person you're having serious symptoms (including insomnia) and they'll most likely give you an earlier appt.

Can you call a crisis line? I'm really worried about you. It sounds like you're in a mixed state. A crisis counselor can get you hooked up with treatment faster.

[DysphoricManicMom]

Took Citalopram, experiencing mania for FIRST TIME

[coldwut]

I'm going to speak with a counselor tomorrow. Hopefully the one I had before is still here. I will tell all of my problems, if I don't forget any of them. I did tell him about the week where I was either irritated or happy. I then told my pdoc at that time, but I was told that it could have been the ritalin. I got off ritalin by the time school ended but I still had episodes and then I got delusional.

I've read that anti-depressants can trigger rapid cycling bipolar in people of the person experiences numerous episodes of hypo(mania) on them.

[TimTheEnchanter]

Some events or meds can exuberate a simple mood disorder to a major manic one. Also drinking with meds is a big no, no...if you do - do not blame the meds but the combo....

[coldwut]

Originally Posted by KinkyGuy

Some events or meds can exuberate a simple mood disorder to a major manic one. Also drinking with meds is a big no, no...if you do - do not blame the meds but the combo....

It could have been a combination of stress and the meds that did it.

Also, I don't drink alcohol while taking my meds. I actually can't because I am underage and the only time that I do drink is at family functions. I have found that I don't really like sweet wine. I think it's called that.