[Edgar's Mom]

I finished my 9th ECT treatment last Friday and my Mom flew back to Ontario after staying with me to help for a few weeks.

Before she was here and before my treatments I was on here every day, following along with people and offering what support I could.

Then I feel like I just dropped off when my Mom got here, which I did.

In addition to that, I've suffered from a lot more memory loss than I thought. I was re-reading some of my old posts and I don't remember some of them. I don't remember being in crisis and my husband leaving work to be with me... I had forgotten that completely until I read that.

Re-reading all of my recent posts I'm struck with gratitude for this list and I feel genuine affection for those of you I've come to know. You have helped me immensely and been there for me. You gave me a lot of really good advice and I had forgotten much of it as well. So when I was re-reading it, it was like I was reading it for the first time and I got warm fuzzies all over again :-)

I'm surprised by how much memory loss I've had. I was unaware of most of it and I had initially been thinking that I might be getting off easy with very little memory loss at all. I guess that's because I was completely unaware of what I'd forgotten, so I didn't think I'd forgotten anything. As time goes on, I realize more and more that I'm missing more than I thought. It seems worse in the past week or two. I wouldn't care if the depression was gone, but it's hanging on so far...

This post is a little scattered, but I wanted to give an update. I've decided I will try to go IP. I'd forgotten that I'd already decided to go, and I'd forgotten that I'd made some arrangements already, but reading my posts here helped.

I'm going to do my best to be on here more regularly and to not be so self absorbed.

Lisa

Goodluck with inpatient treatment, I hope it is beneficial for you

[Ripose]

We missed you too! I love reading your posts and I was hoping your ECT had gone better.
Do you still have treatments coming up?

I am very confused right now so I hope the above made sense.

[Mountainbard]

Glad to have you back. Don't worry about not posting. You've been busy and going through a lot. I hope your memory clears up soon.

[raspberrytorte]

Missed you too, edgar'smom! You always have encouraging and supportive things to say. I hope IP helps. (((hugs)))

[LettinG0]

Missed you too! Hope your memory improves and good luck with IP!

[gayleggg]

It's good to have you back.

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[cashart10]

Glad to see you back! I hope that IP helps you and that you regain your memory fully. I can only imagine how difficult that must be for you.

[BeyondtheRainbow]

Something I've seen people I was IP with who were getting ECT do is that they have moments they feel better, even chunks of time they feel better (one woman would have better days on her off days) and then get the ECT and forget that they felt better and then it was impossible to believe that they had been better the day before. So maybe ask your husband and mom what they've seen and if you've had any improved times that you've forgotten because of the treatments?

When I'm IP I usually keep a notebook and write down every single thing that happens. If I do ECT I'm really hoping that this habit sticks, at least somewhat, so that I can read about the day before and the days before that. We'll see; I know that can be really hard while going through it and the only thing that will probably have me doing it is the habit. Although my last stay I wrote down exactly 5 lines on a beautifully collaged notebook. I can't remember what we were collaging but mine is really pretty (I think I lost track of the assignment halfway through and did my own thing).