How many of you cover up, or mask your behavior to hide bipolar?

I know I do. I have people that have argued with me that I am NOT bipolar. Then other friends can clearly see, because I have let my freak shine, so to speak.

[Ripose]

I cover up the best when I see a pdoc because of my fear of being put IP or worse, the provincial institute.
When I am around people I know than my full weirdness is let lose.

[BastetsMuse]

Originally Posted by ValentinaVVV

How many of you cover up, or mask your behavior to hide bipolar?

I know I do. I have people that have argued with me that I am NOT bipolar. Then other friends can clearly see, because I have let my freak shine, so to speak.

Heck yes. I think the best actors are bipolar, don't you?

[hopeless2015]

Oh yeah slap that smile on till I can't do anymore, over and over again till I'm in the depths of depression and can't even move. Just did it yesterday for a work function. It's exhausting pretending everything is fine

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[LettinG0]

I was thinking about this yesterday........

Here I am, quietly and steadily "losing my mind"......and no one around me even knows.......and I wonder if it would make a difference if they did????

Thanks for answering. I feel like now, even on meds, I still have to watch myself closely in hypomania. Monitor my behavior.

[DysphoricManicMom]

We are going to my future in laws tonight for dinner and I always have a mask on. And I dread it. Sometimes, though, I cant mask not wanting to talk so they prob think Im a stuck up asshole. Im already an introvert, u couple it with irritation and Im shut down completely or otherwise Id be snapping at stupid comments my future father in law makes. Then id be a *****. So ***** or asshole. But i suppose its still a mask of sorts. So then instead of talking, the whole time we are there I am thinking about all the negatives about these people and how irritated I am that i have to be subject to it, and so on. But i do it with my own family too, lol. My father in law witnessed me snap at my boyfriend one time, which prob shattered his view of me as "easy going and laid back". But no one is always rainbows and unicorns even without mental illness, so...

[Nammu]

Depends on where I am and who I'm with.
This site helped me be more open with my T, I finally admitted to the paranoia to T -I thought it was such a big thing to admit--but she already knew! Until recently never admitted paranoia or irritability to a p-doc--tho it might have helped because for the first time I'm doing well on med's.

Still its not something I let other people know about. I think some people are just better at reading people because they pay more attention, they are more emphatic.

Originally Posted by ValentinaVVV

How many of you cover up, or mask your behavior to hide bipolar?

I know I do. I have people that have argued with me that I am NOT bipolar. Then other friends can clearly see, because I have let my freak shine, so to speak.

Everyday of my life, Wake up, put your mask on and go through the day. I am not happy inside. My mind seems to be falling apart at the seams. I cant even get into see a pdoc until the end of Nov. I dont know how I will last that long.!!!!!! aaaahhhhhh

It doesn't matter to me. I've got bigger fish to fry. Like bipolar is something to be ashamed about. We were born this way.

Now trying to control the switching between personalities, that's hard. Actually, it's getting to a point that I don't care about that either.

Kiss my MI.

[HALLIEBETH87]

Yep it's common I think and not just with bipolar

[ComfortablyNumb5]

Originally Posted by ValentinaVVV

Thanks for answering. I feel like now, even on meds, I still have to watch myself closely in hypomania. Monitor my behavior.

I have major anger issues. I have to watch myself too when I'm in a mood.

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[BlackSheep79]

I always tell others were professional actors, lol. Oh I crack myself up. Anyway, when people outside my family find out they say "you don't act bipolar" Drives me fricken crazy. I try to hide it because I don't want to hear all day "what's wrong." Just leave me alone while I fake smile and laugh at everything you say.

[ComfortablyNumb5]

I forgot to add, when I'm dealing with mixed or hypo I talk ALOT. I'll catch myself doing it and shut up quickly. My bf points it out to me so I guess people do notice.

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[mattjstead]

Every day of my life.

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[MistressStayc]

I think I deserve a freaking academy award most of the time.

[raspberrytorte]

I try to. I have trouble hiding it when I'm depressed though. Except for the depression thing, I'm great at hiding it! No one knows... Except for when I'm depressed.

[Ndscisyv]

Everyday for work. The days I have to deal with too many people are the worst. But the hardest time to cover up are during the mixed episodes which seem to last forever. The irritability and sarcasm that comes with mixed are the hardest for me to mask.