[jeshuelle]

Hi anyone on here with Bipolar had experiences of delusional states? Would be interested in your experiences.

[Pastel Kitten]

Originally Posted by jeshuelle

Hi anyone on here with Bipolar had experiences of delusional states? Would be interested in your experiences.

In July, I had a pretty terrifying experience during one of my worst depressive phases. I went into the bedroom while my boyfriend was napping, and here's where things become tricky...I think I startled him awake (probably) with my sudden entry, but from my POV, he started yelling (without any coherent words) progressively louder and louder as if he were possessed. He then reached out towards me to grab me, so I, thinking he was going to hurt me, ran out of the bedroom screaming from the tops of my lungs. I fell on the ground when I yanked the door open and busted my knees pretty badly.

Now, he tells me I simply walked into the bedroom, stood in the middle of the room (in the dark) and started screaming out of nowhere. He claims nothing else really happened, and that he hadn't yelled at all. It's really confusing to think about.. nothing like this has ever happened to me before, but it sure was horrifying. I couldn't sleep in that bedroom or without the light on for 2 weeks.

[coldwut]

I've had brief episodes throughout my childhood and teenaged years, but I had a really bad, a little over two months episode this past summer.

I was taking an anti-depressant at that time and was not diagnosed as having bipolar disorder, but I was really irritated and elevated during that time and believed that I was being poisoned, among other things.

Yeah.

[cowboy87]

I have delusions of Grandeur a lot. When I am manic it gets worse. I feel like I am able to do things that I do not have the training for. For instances, I feel like I am capable of producing medications with no biochemistry background. I feel I am capable of giving legal advice or even defending people in court even though I am still working on my undergrad to get into law school. I get paranoia as well. I feel like the police are going to get me for something I didn't do. When I get delusional I often start working on a big project and then as the medication begins to kick back in. I stop working on it and wonder what I was thinking to begin with.

Yeah, same here. The worse one was where I told a lady that I can pick up a 2 story house by myself. I was scared before I was halfway through wondering how the hell did I get into this. It's a wonder that I ain't dead.

Other than that, some paranoia, everyone is looking at me funny thinking things, whispering behind my back, following me on the road and stores, looking through my windows at night watching, standing behind me in my room at night.

[CopperStar]

My biggest trigger for paranoid delusions is any sort of conspiracy theory material. It's very easy for me to get sucked in and start freaking out. I think my worst paranoid delusion episode was about 4 years ago, I was convinced that the government was going to round everyone up into FEMA camps and kill us all, and I was desperately trying to save my family, who did not "understand" at all and would not follow me into hiding in the woods. I wound up having a massive fight with them followed by a complete mental breakdown, and they were absolutely bewildered and angry with me. It was a pretty awful time.

[Slowbrains]

I used to think my wife's stealing our money for herself and couldn't get that thought out of my head. Also i was convinced that my colleagues were plotting against me behind my back to get me fired. Those thoughts came always around end of hypomanic episode when i began to turn into mixed and depression. Nowadays been more stable and free of those thoughts.

[wildflowerchild25]

When I was manic I believed I had magical healing powers and if I could just talk to people or they could read my "essays" they would be healed from all mental pain.

I also believed that a demon had invaded my mind and was showing/telling me violent things.

I also believed that someone (but I did not know who) was trying to kill me by getting me to kill myself. I became terrified that people could read my mind. It was bad.

Another good one was I was being dragged to the woods because my girlfriends entire family was going to kill me. I did 70 in a 55 on the way up there hoping to get arrested for warrants but got a Merry Christmas and a ticket instead. All hope faded away. I should of punched the cop. I was like, let's get this over with, good bye world.

[secretgalaxy]

When I was unmedicated and manic, I believed and could see people dancing on the roofs of the apartment complex I live in. I also believed I could fly and had to be pulled away from a second story window (I live in the second story) a few times. I also believed that all food had medication in it except caffeine,which counteracted with it, so all I drank was energy drinks with loads of caffeine. Another one was I thought my closet was a time machine and I took my dog and slept in my tiny closet all night. Last one was I thought that the government was watching me with cameras (could see them in my room) and were contemplating adding me to the elite force. The goal I had to do was stay up for three days. I got to 68 hours without sleep then slept an hour and went another 48 hours without sleep.

[jacky8807]

When I had a big psychotic break I had every major delusion possible...fbi after me tv/newspaper sending me messages poisoned ,I murdered somebody extent with tins of hallucinations. That was the worst.but when I'm hypo/manic I get alot of delusions of grandeur..healing and psychic powers ect

[DysphoricManicMom]

My delusions are usually jealousy related.

I was convinced my boyfriend's biological cousin was flirting with him and that he was looking at her boobs. I was also convinced that my niece and my boyfriend were talking about me and that he was flirting with her, and that he would purposely wait until she got in the shower to go upstairs to get something so he could try to peek in at her.

I was also convinced that he was doing "something" on his computer he didnt want me to see. I thought porn, looking at profiles on facebook, messaging other girls, also thought he could be trying to contact his ex's son who was basically his son but thought he was trying ti keep it a secret.

I hadnt done that in a long time, until last week when I was convinced he was trying to hide something on his computer again. And then after he talked me down I was convinced he did things to make me believe that he was hiding something just to **** with me!!

Other delusions i have had are the mistakes I made being equivelant to murder and that I should be punished as a murderer. That certain bad things happening in my life were me being punished by the universe for my mistakes. Doctors saying bad things about me.

[raspberrytorte]

During my last manic episode I believed I was actually asleep and walking around in my dreams and that the walls in our bedroom were my dream walls where I could conjure up positive energy by making collage after collage. The walls were covered with them, like wallpaper. I became obsessed with making more and more positive energy and once I had enough I needed to wake myself up and unleash all of my positive energy and save the world with it. To "wake" up I took some pills.

I ended up in the hospital needless to say.