How hard do you hit each "Pole" in Bipolar?

I am completely manic right now. Just haven't slept in so long. My body is screaming at me. My head is pounding. But I am so hyper. I can feel it flowing through my fingers. Had a great breakfast/lunch, and now I am just sitting here with the window open on this lovely warm November day blasting Adele's "Hello" over and over like its stuck on repeat.

I am hitting both poles hard lately. Just shifting back and forth. Like a pendulum. Tick tock. Tick tock. Swing left, swing right. Tick tock. Swing left, swing right. Sometimes I just fly like I am in euphoria, other times I am even and sometimes just plain flat with no energy and no hope.

I know most people would say ask for a medication adjustment, but you know after 10 years of this nonsense, pills more pills, more and more drugs, switch this, try that, be a zombie or gain 100 pounds. My body has just had enough ya know? I finally found a combination that keeps the "crazy mania voices" thoughts and the suicidal thoughts outta my head. So the absolute EXTREME highs and lows are gone. But I am still shifting. Each day.

I feel like I am hitting the manic "pole" really hard right now. I am in control. But I am soooo tired. And yet I am going. Needing more information, needing stimulation. Like Johnny 5 "more input". Lol.

So any of you who have been stable or not even stable been feeling this?

Pretty hard. At the bottom I was hurting myself and unable to function, at the high I was spending copious amounts of money and engaging in really ridiculously dangerous risky behaviour

Yes, I am medicated but poorly so. I still become psychotically manic and psychotically depressed. I get very high and very low. Sometimes it is wonderful but most times it is either terrifying or just plain saddening. I am about to start clozaril which is supposed to be a miracle drug for some, even treatment resistant, folks.

This is a great question as resource for people who are trying to learn and understand the illness after recent diagnosis.

I am diagnosed bipolar type 2 and spend most of my time very depressed. When hypomania strikes, I barely make it above the energy, mood, functionality level of "normals". That said, I do have times when I feel like a god, just not consistently so.

Ohhhhh, i defenately hit total bottom. Took me about year and half to crawl out of it. Still work in progress. Hope you get to feeling better soon.

I almost always become suicidal when the depression fully hits me. I feel stupidly confident/euphoric/motivated while hypomanic, as if I'm experiencing life on drugs. I cycle through my moods very quickly (anywhere from 1-3 weeks each) so I never know what to expect. Makes it hard to keep any sort of routine whatsoever.

I'm BP1. My depression usually hits ard the time change when it's dark all the time. I don't get suicidal. I withdraw and want to be alone. I just do the bare minimals to get through each day....nothing extra. I don't attend social functions not even family related. I sometimes think abt the past, what I've lost to BP. I think abt my lack of finances which makes me want to cry. Then I watch tv and/or get on here between the two I push through to the next day. My mania, I'm high on life--I will spend money like crazy, I'm impulsive....I get piercings and tattoos. I love being on social media. I use to have risky behavior until I moved out of state and went on risperdal. I still drive dangerous

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Thanks to everyone who responded! Yes it seems that most people identify with the "low pole." I fly often more than feeling low. Today feels a bit mixed only because I managed to get some type of sleep. But the poles definitely bother me because I never know how hard they will actually hit. They come out of nowhere.

Honestly it feels like a curse.

I hit low really hard and often.... Right now it's like that. I only get hypomanic and not often but I don't like being in that state because I'm super obnoxious and talkative lol. I almost interviewed for a brothel one time I was hypo (story for another time lol) but thank god I came down before that happened haha.

I'm on the high side a lot. I go through mini depressions from time to time.

My poles sort of... slowly come together, and when they connect SHTF.

While my mania is pretty well up there the depression is where it really hits the skids. The latter is when I usually end up IP.

I have never been IP. I won't go. But, I have been suicidal several times in my life and Mania went pretty up there.

The last real episode was this early spring and I should have been IP. Instead I was under "Hotel IP." I stayed in a hotel and only left to exercise . I was mixed and I could barely function. Went on antipsychotics for a while.

Psychotic on both ends.