Alone

Sometimes i feel that no one will have me. A middle aged woman with bipolar and MS.

Both are controlled conditions. To meet me, I seem normal. Able bodied, with just a few kinks here and there. And relatively mentally stable, with just a few mental kinks here and there.
Knowing that i have 2 incurable disease and at any moment either one could change dramatically.

Is there really a man that could accept me this way. That could love someone with such an unpredictable future.

If there is such a man, I haven't found him.

Yes but I think they often need to be approached and flirted with first, because they have the same insecurities + likely a history of actually being shot down multiple times when trying to pursue.

There are plenty of middle-aged men who are alone/single because they have been through some ****, themselves, and now have the same feelings.. "I'm older, fatter, bald in front, etc" and don't try as much or at all anymore.

The creepers who expect to land 20-year-old hotties typically congregate on Craigslist so just avoid that place lol.

I know they're out there because I married one. We're both middle-aged and just about to throw in the towel when we met. He has MS and I have my basket of MI issues, and we get along just fine. Don't give up!