[Kitty13]

I've been suffering from depression, anxiety, social anxiety, I'm pretty sure I'm bipolar too...and suicidal tendencies for quite sometime. Since I was eight years old. I'm nineteen now, going on twenty. When I was 13, I started self-harming. I did anything from cutting myself to burning myself, even taking pills to try and numb the pain. I'm not sure as to where my depression and issues originally started from. I have a hard time remembering my past. Maybe that's a good thing. I haven't self-harmed in a while. Maybe a year or so. But I have tried committing suicide before. I took a whole bunch of pills but I ended up throwing them up. I'm scared of death but I'm not afraid to die. I've convinced myself that maybe it's for the better if I would just disappear. When I was younger, a family member would hit me, make fun of me and purposely make me miserable...maybe that's the reason I am the way I am...I don't know~

[Kitty13]

I don't know why I am the way I am. I'm depressed, suicidal, I have social anxiety, I don't even want to leave my room. I like being alone. I will get a boyfriend and them push him away and leave within the first week even if I really like them. I just prefer to be alone. But it makes me sad to be alone....

[BeyondtheRainbow]

What makes you think you have bipolar? You aren't describing mood changes like the ones that occur in bipolar nor are you describing other symptoms of it in these 2 posts.

Have you ever read about borderline personality disorder? I'm not saying you have it, only a psychiatrist could do that but it sounds like something you might want to look into.

Bottom line: You need to fine a psychiatrist and a therapist so that you can start working on whatever issues are causing symptoms that are making you uncomfortable.

[Victoria'smom]

Can you get yourself to a psychiatrist and a therapist?

[Kitty13]

Sometimes, I feel down and out. I'll get angry at the littlest things, I'll even get angry at being sad or depressed. Or i'll even be somewhat happy (i think), but then it just spirals away and goes back and starts over again. Like a never ending series. Sometimes it's like a strong rage over me and It's like I know what I'm doing or saying but I don't stop. It's like an out of body experience --- like I'm watching myself from the outside but I can't stop it.

Originally Posted by BeyondtheRainbow

What makes you think you have bipolar? You aren't describing mood changes like the ones that occur in bipolar nor are you describing other symptoms of it in these 2 posts.

Have you ever read about borderline personality disorder? I'm not saying you have it, only a psychiatrist could do that but it sounds like something you might want to look into.

Bottom line: You need to fine a psychiatrist and a therapist so that you can start working on whatever issues are causing symptoms that are making you uncomfortable.

[Unrigged64072835]

You should see a therapist and psychiatrist, and get a proper diagnosis. That way you can get the help you need. I have both bipolar and borderline personality disorder, and they are definitely two separate treatments. You need a professional to give you the proper treatment.