[Becoming]

I suck when it comes to romance. Cannot do it. I latch on and I suck at letting go. I am just so lonely I can begin to like anyone that shows interest in me almost right away.

I just spent near $300 to meet someone I met online less than 2 weeks ago. We had fun but I could have lost my job and then not been able to pay back important loans.

Now she is not interested anymore. Thinks I am too kid-like and that my parents control me too much. Also likes her phone more than me.

Why was I so stupid to spend all that money so fast and risk so much? And now she doesn't even want to be with me. I would not have gone if I thought this would happen. Now I started with nothing and ended with even less (less money and much less trust from my parents).

I feel like such a stupid piece of crap right now. I literally wound up with almost nothing and to think I almost lost my freaking job!!!

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[Lady Lazarus]

from one lonely person to another, I totally get it. I don't think you are stupid, I think that we would go to great lengths to not feel so alone. Sometimes we can get a little impulsive about it and do things that we regret later. While I tend to ruminate over things I feel I've done wrong, I try to tell myself "you live and you learn". Take this as a learning experience and maybe next time try to think it through and act in a way to preserve your parents trust, your job, and your own emotions. Don't be too hard on yourself!

[tbird20tv]

It is amazing how we hold onto the bad things. I keep hearing let it go and I am trying to practice that. Being lonely is horrible. I am hoping to find a way out soon.

[topgun263]

Originally Posted by Becoming

I suck when it comes to romance. Cannot do it. I latch on and I suck at letting go. I am just so lonely I can begin to like anyone that shows interest in me almost right away.

I just spent near $300 to meet someone I met online less than 2 weeks ago. We had fun but I could have lost my job and then not been able to pay back important loans.

Now she is not interested anymore. Thinks I am too kid-like and that my parents control me too much. Also likes her phone more than me.

Why was I so stupid to spend all that money so fast and risk so much? And now she doesn't even want to be with me. I would not have gone if I thought this would happen. Now I started with nothing and ended with even less (less money and much less trust from my parents).

I feel like such a stupid piece of crap right now. I literally wound up with almost nothing and to think I almost lost my freaking job!!!

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**** happens in Bipolar you know.

I spent 900$ on the online training which I never took.

[ThunderGoddess]

I have BPD and that is exactly what I tend to do I'm in love with love. I get attached immediately maybe some DBT therapy could help you with that, it helps me to seperate myself from others and not cling to so much. Also you are not stupid you are human, you make mistakes just like the rest of us! Forgive yourself and be kind to yourself.