[B2008]

Throughout the years I've issues with losing moments. I can feel it coming on but can't control it. It's like being paused while the rest of the world goes by. If I'm driving even in my hometown of 30 years, I am lost when I snap back. No sense of direction I don't recognize the houses or roads. It only takes a few minutes to reorientate but it's taken years to stay calm and breath through the confusion. Other times I will talk and not know I even said anything. I can walk from the kitchen to living room and not remember the in between or drive and completely lose 10 miles. The memory never comes back. This last year when this happens I feel and see myself crashing into a wall or someone running at my face screaming at me. I know it didn't happen but it feels real. Often in these moments I lose things or put things where they don't belong. Currently we are missing my daughters bag of m&ms we laugh it off but when you remember something one way but it really happens another it's very scary. I also tend to remember conversations that never took place. I really try to pay attention now like I remember the look and feel of opening the cabinet and placing bag inside I can see it. But that didn't happen. Oh and the music faintly but it's there not all the time but I hear it quietly playing. What is this? Is this a symptom of bipolar?

No matter how small, a positive change deserves to be celebrated!

[CANDC]

Hi B2008. So sorry you are suffering from so challenges with Bipolar. To me practicing mindfulness helps me not get caught up in the racing mind. It can be as simple as counting the breaths as I breathe naturally, 1 on the inhale and exhale, 2 on the inhale and exhale, continuing up to 10 then return to 1 again.

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For me lifestyle changes fit big in my recovery hopes.

I have to watch what I eat because foods I eat can stabilize my moods or exaggerate them. A high protein low carb diet with snacks or meals every 3-4 hours will over time reduce my swings. I also avoid alcohol and recreational drugs because those can really increase depression.

Other lifestyle changes that help me are doing yoga, exercises, mindfulness, calm music, and being active on Psych Central.

[Cocosurviving]

Good afternoon. I'm not sure if you have a doc (psychiatrist) or if your taking meds. If yes then speak to your doc abt these symptoms. If your not into meds there are others on here that do not either. I'm sure they might give you tips on how to deal with symptoms (make a post abt living without meds). There are articles on here abt it too. A lot of members have therapist too. It might be helpful to talk with someone ASAP.

I hope things get better for you.

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[B2008]

I was misdiagnosed with depression for 8 years. On a ton of different antidepressants and anti anxieties (made me so much worse) but gave up after 2 years. Had my worst episode two months ago n finally got diagnosed bp and started depakote haven't seen psyc doc yet. But for the first time in my life I feel good. It's very sad now that I see what I put my family through husband of 8 years and 4 kids. But I'm very blessed and we treat my mi as a family and have a positive outlook. But now there's just so many questions. It's like getting to know yourself all over again.

No matter how small, a positive change deserves to be celebrated!